Drowning under water
Almost helpless to speak
The ocean taste so salty
Yet overwhelmingly pleasant
I found some sweetness in this bitterness
One is lucky if one still have tears
To cry about something so Precious

You never live till you have had something
Worth ripping your heart out for

Terrified of letting go
I aim for simple things
just focus on my breathing, his eyes
my hand, how it feels
try to remember the summer breeze
try to remember his hug and touch
try to remember burst of happiness

before I have to be by myself
convincing myself to drag on my hallow shell
before I turn to something else for comfort

I am trying to remember
because for once, I had a reason to want to.

close your eyes babe
what do you see?
a starry night or a porcelain sky?
is it the shade of navy you love?
i closed my eyes and i saw the world grabbing me gently, pulling me tight and close,
while it whispers sweet nothing in my ear
i envision a love that is endless,
a heart so large that it overflows,
and a passion that even fruits envy.
so tell me darling,
have you a dream to sell me?

Judging others
out of lack of reason
hurts the self more
the judge becomes his own prison.

He walked to the lake
the frozen sheet of ice that glistened
I followed with so little hesitation
as if I knew he wouldn't let me fall through
But he would
Foolishly in love I am
so close to danger
the closer to danger I am
the further away I truly am.

we are all shouting
into the abyss
hoping someone would shout back
and we do find them

and when we do
we hold on tight.

1000 minutes of staring
into a blank wall
trying to find my purpose
I wish I had a life map
show me exactly where to go
because this unknown Abyss
its driving me mad

I could hear it whispering
time clicking louder than thunder
it keeps me awake at night
it follows me like a shadow in the day

he took the form of a tall blank man
who stared with no eyes
I panicked and took a knife
to end my abyss

all the same. hes driving me mad.