I was nothing if not distraught
Russet and frail, my youth streamed lies
He was anything but a loss

Brown splishing eyes and chaos caught
Tight in the tipsy bows I plied
I was nothing, if not distraught

Wrecked as we were, while I forgot
Heart in his throat, I made it mine
He was anything but a loss.

Beckon me back, claim me as frost
Slight, on the brink of stolen tides
I am nothing if not distraught.

Weak as I stood, I still cannot
Lean on the love who fleetes with prime
He was anything but a loss.

Black preened his eyes, n' I just watched
Lacking water, we sunk in pride
I was nothing if not distraught.
He was all, all I ever I lost.

I cheated, I played the Gibson
So my song sounded better
So your eyes wound up wetter
I didn't mean to make you cry
But I couldn't hug you, not while
You wore that barber's cape
So I just played another song
But I strummed it on a Sigma

i peeked
as we kissed
just one eye
felt like a sin
until i saw
heaven
in his lashes

there they went
and here i stay
tomorrow, i'll find religion
so i can lose my mind
in style
yeah, they'll be back
and i'll be gone

and if
at three in the morning
your life comes tapping at your window
don't close the curtains
open the pane
and don't wait for a serenade
just jump

so pour the blame on me
the shame's already there
i begged you
to call the shots
then dared that you took
them in the dark
now i'm taking
bullets you aimed at yourself
but surely it won't **** me
to keep our love alive
no, that's a sacrifice
i'm simply
too late to make

so leave
the blame with me
the shame's
already here

staring competition
with the shadows in the curtains
three a.m.
hasn't ever come so late

streetlight out a ways
i make a funny face
just in case somebody
really is watching

please,
let me have a dream
so i can come alive
before the nightmares
remember where to find me

'cause i can't tell if i've been
losing sleep
or if it's
catching up to me

the world has a way of breaking
everything that has a chance
of making it good

but you didn't understand
and he prayed you never would

(just so i could say amen)

There was a time I remembered
Billowing blinks, yet still i saw
Those were the worst; minute's embers.

Oh the faces of the withered
Charcoal and chalk, but aren't we all?
Those were the worst; autumn's embers

Old ghoulish grove, did I quiver?
Or free the fox from where he clawed?
There was a time I remembered.

Odes to ice rung by crossed fingers
Once was a first, and thrice too far
Those were the worst; seconds' embers.

Have I a spark to crown as clever?
Brazen and jeweled, did that queen fall?
There was a time I remembered.

These ashes I beg to hinder
Don't taint the ticks on chambered walls
There'll come a time I'll remember.
I was the worst; always embers.

Periwinkle tablecloths
Coca-cola pop rocks
Cake looks like a race track
Mickey has a clapper
Maddie's got a party hat
Daddy lights the numbers
And many more...
In unison
Now make a wish!
Oh, there's nothing that I need
Ah, there's myself in a balloon
Red and sheer and shy and
Make a wish!
Shiny, high and stationed and
Smile!
It's your birthday,
You idiot