Rubyredheart

Rubyredheart May 8

know

Surely I’ve said it all before
still I feel it every day & every night with such strength
I wish for fresh new ways to tell you & convince you
I miss you
I love you
I want you
I need you
Talk to me
Share with me
Show me
Tell me
Touch me
Hold me
Take me
Know me
Your voice
Your image
Your words
Your presence
Your touch
Your love
I burn for you

Nothing communicates all

If only I could fall into your embrace
maybe then you’d know
I am always all yours

Originally written 2nd May 2024

Rubyredheart May 8

Midnight Snack

Taiwanese fermented tofu & rice
But I’d rather you were my midnight snack
always,
stinky tofu

originally written 29th Feb 2024

Rubyredheart May 7

Red Light

Would you linger with me
Soft lips meeting
Savoring the stolen moments
of red-light kisses Someday?

I’m saving them all for you…

My thoughts will fly your way
At each red light each & every day
as in dreams I’ll wait

Originally written 21st Feb 2024

Rubyredheart May 7

The Nerve to…

I wish I had the nerve
Wish I didn’t revert
to fixing, soothing, fawning, self-erasing
I wish I could remember how I feel,
find the words…at the right time
but mostly find the nerve

How many months am I allowed to hurt
after a couple decades of injury?
I wish I had the nerve
to take MY turn!
Then, I wish he would just listen.

Yes, angry now
that I don’t have the nerve
to carve out a place for MY hurt
Or better yet
to find my own safer space to heal

Rubyredheart May 5

remain

you dwell so deep within my fantasy
i cannot loose you from my longing
your name and touch flow through my veins
your body is my heat
your face and voice though faded, reappear
in watercolor visions of my dreams
your erasure fails
because you are my book of memories
you’ll ever be my always wish
when i frame my love
when i draw the walls of home
there you remain
my love
ever haunting my hope

originally written 16th Apr 2023

Rubyredheart May 5

Memories or Dreams

Were those days real,
The sunshine moments conversing?
Did those precious few nights exist
Blanketed by your breath?
Where do memories end
and visions of desire begin?
Those words of love you spoke—
are they memories or dreams?
Will they yet come back to me?

originally written 11th Apr 2023

Rubyredheart May 5

from experience

there’s no grey in black & white
until the bleeding starts
then, sometimes
there’s even color

#perspective #pain #growth #print