Alone.
It's all I feel.

I think of you
When the sky is early blue
As it was this morning

I think of you
With this tenderness
You’ve given me to know

I think of you
In your single bed
Asleep even now

I think of you
Waking to the sound of the sea
To the breakfast voices of children

I think of you
Your quiet body
Folded against my own

I think of you
My front to your back
My heart beating against you

I think of you
Turning over and holding me
In the still warmness of sleep

I think of you
Loving me in your waking
As I love you now in this writing

I think of you
Though far away
So very close

I am running through the woods
away from the paths and into the brush
white ribbon unravels in the breeze threw the
branches and the trees
my white dress trails behind my
fleeing legs
my chest beats wildly
the suns rays escaping the canopy
kissing the floor
a bed of leaves and little creepy crawling things
Slow motion scene
calling like a crow
For the lost love I once knew
reaching grounds my feet dont know
foriegn the feeling of searching for you
I hear a loud beeping piercing the forest
and I stop dead and look to the sky
My eyes open breathless and shaken
and I turn on my pillow to see you sleeping
so sound and sweetly beside me
I swore just then in the early dawn
while shutting my alarm before disturbing you
That I'd never loose you again

You're dangerously honest
Silently filled with screams
Your body lies in the waking world,
Yet your mind still wanders in dream

Walking alongside mannequin masses
How much of this is real?
Staring back at what I assume to be myself
Emptiness pervading all that I feel

I drown in the sin of impassioned sweat
These stained sheets that mark my grave
These years are poison; these tears are deadly
The lies of living have made me a slave

Lost, wandering in a vicious world
Of constant contradictions and deadly afflictions
Dying by the hand of my own vices
And misguided, misinterpreted convictions

My favorite song is being sung by a dead man
Stolen are his hopes and dreams
A resurgence of his soul enlivens me
Though his revelations remain unseen

For I know why the caged animal cries
Through iron bars, he is fed lies

The truth is but a lie undiscovered
Who controls the thoughts in your head?
Discreet indiscretion and silent objection
Our minds spoon fed the brilliant flesh of the dead

I long only to feel the warmth of your love
Before I grow tired and cold
I long to be blessed with your passion
Realize such worldly wonders without being told

A shallow grave sunken in marshy swamp
No one to watch over or preside
This empty box houses my world for eternity
In the darkness of the infinite is where I will hide

I thought of writing you a letter,
One that spoke of my heart to you,
How with you things felt better,
Where to begin I didn’t have a clue.

I wondered of the sun and moon,
Of mountains majestic and waters blue,
Of the season where flowers bloom,
Of rains with their warmth in gloom.

None of them seem to say it right,
Of what my heart feels when you call to me,
The times you remind me of myself when I forget,
I realize like a fool I didn’t need all the mockery.

All I wanted to say was so simple,
When on the white I wrote in blue,
Nothing else said it better than the three oldest words,
I love you.

Heart-Beat
Heart-Breaks
Heart-Beat
Heart-Aches
Heart-Beat
Heart-Craves
Heart-Beat
Heart-Stops
Heart-Beat
Heart-Again.

It shouldn't be this way...
You alone and my arms empty a million miles away
You crying without anyone one there to say
I'm here

It shouldn't be so cold for you
Sitting with legs wrapped and only walls in blurred view
Longing for a love I know I can give you
Easily, lovely, yet there you cry

I could be there, the tears wiped from you face
My lips calming you whilst in a tender embrace
Lying with you in moments none can replace
Tasteful, tender, warm moments

It should be that way
Everyday. Today, tomorrow, yesterday
No sorrow, me with you, forever to stay
Never alone hereafter...