Why is it bad to give up?
People make us feel guilty
About being tired
And torn
And broken
We can't stand anymore.
We can't form words or thoughts
And yet you want us to press on?
On for what?
Where is the light at the end of this tunnel?  
What are we even fighting for?
We all want something simple
Love,
Time,
Or family,
I just want to sleep
So don't you dare call us weak,
Because we don't want to give up but
It's not worth it anymore
We need to do some damage control
We're the casualties of the war that we're the only ones fighting so
Why not surrender?

I should have asked you to stay for one more minute
A second to explain your life to me
A second to remember what it was like when you were here
A second to remember what it was like when we were together
A second for your voice to be somewhere other than my head
A second to talk about where you've come from
A second to sit together
A second to hold hands (at least in spirit)
A second to love each other one last time
A second to dream together like we used to
A second to see the whole world, hand in hand
A second to be alone with someone else being there
A second to hear you breathing
A second to cherish forever, if this is our last chance
A second to count the colours in your eyes (They look like little galaxies)
A second to say goodbye, although I'm not very good at it
A second to run down the hall with you, one more time
A second to think about what would have happened if we had stayed together
A second to think about what would have happened if you had stayed
A second to smile at you. I think you might like that
A second to see you smile; I love seeing you smile
A second to sit in the grass together
A second for you to just be there
A second to sing that song that we used to love
A second to look forward to something
A second to hear you breathe
A second to watch the sunset
A second to listen to the birds outside
A second to see you when I turn around
A second to exist with you; we didn't have a lot of time to do that before
A second to watch the snow fall
A second to pick out shapes in the clouds
A second to count the craters on the moon
A second to walk in the rain, and
A second to just feel it
A second to read with you, and
A second to watch you read. I loved watching you read
A second to watch that show together
A second to show you Venus and Mars: we can see them without a telescope
A second to hear you say my name; I hate my name unless it's you saying it
A second to hear your heart beat instead of mine
A second to count the days I've known you for
A second to hear you play the clarinet
A second to watch your hair flop in your face
Can we just stare at each other for a second? A second to stare at each other
A second to show you the tree I used to climb
A second for you to meet my dog (you still haven't, but she still loves you)
A second to write together
A second to show you my old notebooks
A second to show you our old school
A second to show you my new one
A second for you to show me yours
A second for you to tell me about the places you've been
A second for you to tell me everything you've seen
A second to let you know how wonderful you are
Another second to make sure that you will absolutely never, ever forget it
A second to show you that you are not alone anymore, and
A second to prove to you that you will never be alone again, unless you want to be (I will always be here)
A second to wonder where you're going next
A second to wish you weren't going to go again
A second to watch time run out
Can we be together for one more minute?
You know I'd stay with you forever if I could, but
If we just have one more minute...

This wasn't finish but the website won't let me change the privacy or delete it while I'm on my phone  so I will finish it and post it later.

I can hear my heart pushing blood through my veins
I can't believe you let me talk
I'm scared to fall asleep and face the nightmares
But I won't talk about that.

If you showed up tomorrow,
I don't know what I would tell you
You've been gone for a little to long

If you showed up tomorrow,
I probably wouldn't recognize you
You always looked different in the pictures

If you showed up tomorrow,
I might just walk away because
I needed you to show up,
*Yesterday

I wonder if you think about me
Because you are always on my mind
And I know we broke up,
But I still wonder what you're doing when you wake up.
I wonder if you think of me
And I've stopped checking to see if you've talked to me
Because I know you haven't
I mean,
It was a pretty clean break
(With razor-sharp edges)
But I don't know what happened.
We were talking on Friday and for a second, I thought it would be okay
But as soon as you were gone, it wasn't anymore,
so please,
I know we're not together anymore,
but *please

I hang on every word you say
Even when you say nothing at all

I don't know how to feel about you,
I mean,
I'm not mad, that wouldn't be fair
I don't understand how you loved me on Monday,
But yesterday,
You regretted it
You regret me
And that hurts like hell
The thought that you didn't love me is like a bullet through my heart
And you didn't have to say that
You could have just said that it was over
And it would have ******,
But it would have been okay
I would have been okay
But instead
You
Crushed
Me
And I don't know what to say anymore
I mean,
How do you look your shooter in the eyes?
I can't remember a day that I didn't wake up
And hope for a message from you
I hoped for one today until I realized you left
Every morning
Before I left for school
All the days that you stayed up late, waiting for me to come home
Every night,
I would say something
Just so that you knew I was there for you
We were invincible
And you were incredible
But now,
You're gone.

You're the best big brother
That I never got to have
But,
You know,
Close enough.