Once upon a time there was a princess  and a peasent. The princess went to a ball and was screamed at by the tourmentor of a king infront of the whole kingdom. She had forgotten to finish her dinner. Soon tears where streaming down her perfect face and she ran into the stabels where she knew no one could find her.  She sat down on the hay bale and cried. Then a stable boy came in and said, “My fair princess what painful harm is pulling at your precious heart?” He sat down next to her and held her hand until the crying stopped. They stayed like that for hours, “ I should really get back to the ball.” He took his hand and wiped her tears. “Same time in the ‘morrow?” the peasent asked. For the first time she saw what perfect eyes he had. “ Sure same time in the ‘morrow.” He smiled and nodded. She soon stood up and he walked her out the barn. He watched her as she left.

Him: I have such a hard life, no one cares about me but you
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                                                    ­                                                      i dont care
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                                                        ­                                         I dont love you
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          ­                                                                 ­                                  I'm a liar
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      ­                                                                 ­                                 I'm suicidal
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  ­                                                                 ­                  I wish i could help you
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          ­                                                                 ­                         I'm to far gone
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          ­                                                                 ­                                   Me too:her

Living on the outside
scared of the light
breaking from the inside
full of fright
trying to be kind
im losing my might
I promise you i tried
tried to be polite
I dont wanna die

Every thing hurts me
It kills my soul every time I speak
I open my eyes but I can't see
The light screams at me
Stop please
I can't think
I can't be
I don't want to try
I'm gonna die
I don't wanna fly
I want to sink
Drown in a sea of pain
Where nothing can hurt me
No thing can hurt me
Everything hurts me
Everything hurts me
It hurts to be
I'm dieing on the inside
And this pain is killing me

Spoken word is the art of forming words to say what no one thought you could
to give people a chance to ride on the waves of the sylabels
the ocean of self expression

Spoken word is the art of story telling
the story unfolds in thier mind like the note you sent your highschool crush
that crushed your heart inside and out

Spoken word is the ability to reach people
and let them reach you
open up
spread the light
let them see you
be transparent to show them what they need to see
tell them what they need to hear

Spoken word is the art that is just out of reach
you cant exactly see what is that makes you feel amazing
you stretch your hands to reach
but your hands are empty
and your heart ends up warm

Spoken word is the art of opening eyes
the ability to blow people's mind
Make them experience something they have never seen

Spoken word is the ability to convey anything with words you may speak
Spoken word is an art
And it's the art for me

THIS IS MY ATTENTION GRABBER
This is how I plan to have you hooked
I can tell you how I cut
But never broke skin
Or I can tell you how I'm lost
About how I hurt my only friend
I can tell you about my father
Or my innocent sister
About my broken mother
Or my uninvited mister
I can tell you all these things
To get you to listen
Pain is my attention grabber
Are you listening?

I wish I could write me
Write what I think
What I believe
But I just do what people tell me
I'm a puppet
I'm always listening
For people to say what is wrong with me
So I can change and make them happy
But since I'm always changing I lost me
Somewhere in the rubble of things that no one likes about me
To become a perfect person I have to lose my soul
Forget my insanity
I want to write me
But she's left in the rubble of old  personalities
Things no one want to see

Don't let me fall
please catch me
I'm trusting you don't you see
I'm failing and you can't even see me
Please don't prove me wrong
See my faults
Catch me before i fall

There is a monster inside of me
and he doesnt want to eat
forces me to turn away every meal
want to throw up at every piece of food i see
He only feast on pain
from my freinds and enemies
Hes also hurting me
but I;m just a puppet for his insanity
theres a monster inside me
and he wont go away
whispers in my ears
tells me no  one wants to stay
tell me im worthless
fat,and ugly
so I wont eay until he thinks im skinny
there is a monster inside and hes always mad
makes me wanna scream
cutting portals in my skin
so he can get out of me
but he shys from daylight
stays with me
at least he will never leave
keeps me company
I have a monster inside of me
and i wont let him leave
we are freinds now
no matter how that seems
He doesnt care what people think
and niether do it
me and my monster
will be destroying things
for eternity

Dad
as anger radiates off you
like the heat of the ground
I freeze
your face is full of hatred
and pain
you come home from work
just to scream at me again
"CHLOE!" you scream
I just nod my head
wont speak
I'm to scared I will scream instead
"DID YOU LEAVE THIS MESS?"
I look around and realize it wastn me
I could be free
but i just nod again
I wont let my sister die inside like i already did
you move so slow to me
but your so fast and strong
you grip my under my arms
throw me up to the wall
scream at me for so long
dont cry stay strong
when your done you let me fall
the carpet catches me
bruises on my arm
I stand up before he can see the harm
but hes already gone
going downstairs to work
ignoring my mom
I wish i could save him
but hes to far gone

I dont have crushes
Ever since a man thought it was alright to grab my legs
I haven't been able to look at any guys the same
Ever since a man twisted my reality
and told me it was fine if he touched me
I can't picture any guy holding me
So I'm sorry when you talk about how you like him
I can't really relate
I haven't had a crush
Since I was *****

Your off to great things
Today is your day
Your mountian is waiting
So get on your way
*Dr suess

I catch myself sometimes
Smiling
Laughing at a joke from my father
Or a silly dance by my sister
And in that quick second I forget what I did
I forget how I hurt them
I stop feeling guilty
Because I forgot what a monster I am
Life is funny that way
You have seconds of joy when you forget your past
Than it all comes back
In a blast on your mind
Everything was just fine
To bad it's never the real Happy

Just hold on I'm coming home
Sorry I couldn't pick up the phone
I know I shouldn't of left her alone
Mom do you think I don't know
I'm sorry what do you want me to do
Yes mom I'm running
No I'm not crying it's hard for me to breathe
Yes I know she left you mom
She left me too
I know it's all my faults she's gone
What do you want me to do
I can't bring her back
I'm almost home
It won't be long
Wait for me cut the cake
For my sister who is *gone

Have you ever felt lonely?
as in the world is stacked against you
and you dont know where your going

I live not knowing
why im not desirable
do i seem not aquirable
what is wrong with me?

Have you ever felt lonely?
because its hopelessly depressing
like drowinging in a lake and no one is besides me
I'm lonely
and I'm tired of living

The darkness is losing
but so many people are on the wrong side
people just going along with the ride
the devil telling them it will wall be fine
as they are on thier way to die
They jump off buildings because the devil whipsers they can fly
People chioce to be nieve
they dont want to believe
ignoring what they see
nothing is as it seems
if you live your life looking through a blind fold
the devil has a hold
on you
you like to believe your living your own life
but your just doing what your flesh tells you to do
you cant even move
if the devil doesnt want you to
you see your in a trance
you believe pain is all you have ever had
you feel empty and sad
so you  get high but it wont last
your mad at the world and you dont know why
your on your way to die
so might as well have fun
bring other people down with you
might as well betray all love
no need to be happy
no need to get saved
the world is going to end
might as well drink your life away
eternity doesnt matter
who cares where you end up?
all you care about
is that you never see the bottom your cup
and if someone tells you diffrent
dares to ask about your ways
they are racist, haters, and above all fake
you tell yourself these things
because you dont want to think
dare have an original thought
go against want the devil thinks
dont follow your heart
dear do anything that may help you in life
dont stop keep it up
stay on the losing side
never feel real love

A religous freak is what they called me
well i say this is not religion
this is the safety net i fall to when all other things fail
this is hope
the fuel that keeps me going
long after all of my friends have stopped
this is not religion
this is a relationship with someone who will never fail me
this
this is the never ending love i will feel till the end of time
while you spend your days feeling
empty
empty becuase wont live knowing his love
his grace
the things he does to make your life great
and dont say it isnt
because there are people out there
worse of than you
who would die to have a pair of Jordans
or any type of shoes
this is not religion
this is knowledge of whats out thier
realizing what you refuse
taking blame for what you do
instead of hating the person who tells you what you do is sin
Love the God who gives you a way back from it
he makes you whole
helps you let it all go
but no matter how much you hate your soul
he can show you love
more than you deserve
make you feel better than the drugs that leave you wanted more
or the person who leaves you crying on the floor
God will never leave you
its as simple as that
this is not religion
its the love that keeps my soul intact
keeps me whole
God will never let me go
this is not a religion
its a raltionship that only me and God know

Anybody here remember Claude? She was a user, but she must of taken her account down or something because I can't find her. It's really sad because I loved her stuff. She took a part of me with her.

All you have is your fire
so baby light it up
set fire to the world
shine brighter than the sun
we only have few choice
happiness is not one
so live through your fire
pretend you are one

All you have is your fire
the rest of the world is ash
your fire burned all of your friends
burned all you ever had
all it wont burn
is the pian of your past
so baby light your fire
make it last

Schizotypal
Borderline
Histronic
Narcissistic
Avoidant
Dependent

I wish you where enough
To give oxygen to my dead lungs
To teach my heart how to beat
To show me how to give love

I wish you where enough
To show me what real
Make me feel whole
Teach me how to feel

I wish you where enough
To give me hope
Make me wanna live with myself
Help me throw away my rope

I wish you where enough
To give me enough strength
To send my demons away
So we can be happy

I wish you where enough
To save me

Why pretend you don't know me
Why pretend at all
You saved more than my life
You know it's true
You gave me me back
Showed me love to
Stayed with me  no matter what I do
Kept me safe with you
Showed me another page
Told me life isn't a game
Made sure I stay
You made me happy
For as long as it last
Why pretend?
You know you saved me

I love you

why?

because someone has too

Can't sleep
Can't breathe
Your the only one I need
Heal me
Be me remedy
Mend my broken heart when you speak
Make me feel like the pain is nothing
I can't sleep
I can't breathe
Your the only one I need
Help me
Please

Beer is the thing that dulls your senses and your pain
Makes it all go away
Gives me an escape
From remembering the bruises on my legs
or hearing my father calls me a mistake
Taking away my need to be fake
Beer is the thing that sets us free
From our unseen bindings

I'm suffocating
Life is leaving
Without you there to hold me
Your my oxygen

I don't care where you are going
But whenever you leave me
I feel like I'm dying
Your my oxygen

And I know this isn't a fair thing to be saying
It's hard to tell you because I want to set you free
But I keep you here because I need you to breathe
your my oxygen

And I keep denying myself the one thing I need
I'm growing older
And I need to figure our how to do this thing
Before you leave permanently
I need to know how to breathe
*Without my oxygen

The only thing stopping me
From being happy
Is me
I'm my own downfall
Pretty sure I won't last long
I self destruct
And even though you love me
You can't change that
There is nothing you can do
I have to heal my inner wounds
And you can't help me through
I'm sorry but it won't be pleasant
I won't be OK
Most of the time I'll be crying
Mentally dying
Trying to smile through the pain
I can hid it if you want
Won't tell you anything
I just wish it would stop
But only I can take away my pain

When did I stop trying to save myself

Your like fire
Everytime I think of you it sends a spark through me
But not enough to restore my pulse
And give me body heat

As I search through the empty place, I like to call my mind I wonder
where are you the child who could always smiled no matter how many times they called her a mistake
where are you the girl who had dreams, and has someone she wanted to share them with
where are you the heroe who could stare at the stars and forget the dark
where are you the leader that I use to be
where are you because your no longer with me

Please stay away
I don't want you to get hurt
I specialize in giving pain
I play you like a sport
I don't want you to leave me
But I want you to survive
I don't want you to be those before you
Leaving me when you're dead inside
So I'm sorry it has to be this way
I don't wanna make you cry
Please let me make it up to you
I will let you leave without fight
I know you hate my sorries
But I will grant you one more
I'm sorry for forcing you to leave
Watch yourself as I slam the door

Claude......

I can't sleep
I'm crying to much

I have never been so empty

I wish you could see what I see
Than maybe you will realize
Why you mean so much to me

Do you care about life?
No not at all

So why are you alive*
Because I have a best friend who does

I'm tired
I wan't too sleep
No need for me to keep on going
Can't knowing
You won't be with me
I'm done
Done with all the dreams
All the we use to have
Use to be
I'm tired
So please let me sleep

Did you know there are 12 year old kids in America who can't spell the name of the teacher they are having *** with?

Its unanimous
In otherwords all the shy people shut up
Forget what you think and put your hands up
Its unanimous
Your mouth is shut
All the word unanimous does
is throw the whispers in the dust

We are all depressed
Just admit it
No one in this world sends to fit it
Forget happiness
Grow a pair and live with it