i can't break fear
when it's being
built into
me

I want that smooth, low voice
not this muppet one I have
but oh!
I can still sing!
    Warble and be your song bird
I want to be a *****
one with a sleek, **** body
but still!
There is something cute
  about a plump girl
   writing poems
     more naked than in the eyes of the Lord.

I want to be so much for you
and sometimes, I am only far away
but
but you take those things I am
and you see them as angels' giggles
polish those ugly parts of me
and keep them in a display case between your lungs
right where I keep yours

My life
Is not mine
I am returning to you
Your arms
Your love.
The worship says
That you are altogether lovely
And I agree.
Because you saved me
From myself.
I will bow to no other.
I am yours
And you are mine.
Your love
Is mine to spread.
I am the butter knife
The world is my bread.
I want to cover it with
The butter.
Your love.
Give me these visions
Give me this love
And help me
To love unconditionally.
I am almost crying
Humbled by your majesty
I can barely move
In your presence.
Everything pales in comparison
With you
And this blessed peace
This yearning to help others
However I can.
There is so much to do
And I am not sure if I can
Do it all.
I cannot do it
Alone
By any means.
I need your help.
And the help of those
Who You call
To love on this
Fallen
Broken
Colorless
Corrupt
Beautiful
World.
I ask this in your name.

I need someone awake at every little hour
To give me some hope when the day surrenders to its nightly power
I sleep only to be woke by sickness
I just need someone to take the edge off

Overcome,
Programmed years in technological mind mission
To control, then dominate one’s thinking vision

Overcome,
Ingrained behavior taught since the inception
To confine movement in the viewed perception

Overcome,
Battled sexes posturing for the top billing
To uphold, then maintain movie star rating  

Overcome,
Perpetuated bigotry in narrow-minded fear
To confuse truth with deceptions we hear

Overcome,
Chained hatred from a past mauled by meetings
To render, then leave one’s will conflicting

Overcome,
Programmed desires to reprogram life simply
To live without love and kindness openly.