Its another night of misplaced affection
as your words reverberate in my mind
you question my hatred
yet you see the answer every time you look in a mirror.

Cold arms and icy glances
skin on skin
animalistic with no emotion
our eyes meet and i see my downfall
i see whats ruining me.

If i asked,
would you run away with me?
Pack up and leave everything behind,
Hitch Hike to freedom,
Start over with nothing but a gutair and each other.

Would you embrace the unknown,
and travel down roads with no destanation in mind?

Does the thought of waking up every morning
not knowing where youll end up
captaviate you as much as I ?

Could you become that fearless,
spontantious and care free?
Or would you turn back,
Remember all the things you've left
And miss your past?

Darling if i asked,
Would you run away with me?
Escape everything we hate
And with one decision
Change our fate?

The nightly ritual
starts with just one drink
as he ingests liquid hatred
that resides in the fridge by the sink.

She sits there in solace
and watches the transformation
as his eyes change
shes witness to his degeneration.

She's learnt when to speak
as well as when to keep quiet
her bodys become to familiar
with black and with violet.

The house is a battle field
every night is world war three
there will never be a winner
and there will never be peace.

I find peace in my dreams
for they show me what my subconscious yearns for
I loath reality.

To be honost
would be to deem myself a liar
and i refuse to accept truth.

The only truth i am willing to accept
is the hatred i have for you.

She watches as he pulls the pills from his pocket
and places them upon the table
he handles them as if he was holding gold.

He crushes it up and places the powder upon a spoon
She see's what she fears
yet what she longs for
the sharp point glistens in the light.

Now he adds the water
and sparks a flame
Its almost ready
she looks for a vein.

He hands her a belt
she knows exzactly what to do
gotta get the blood flowing
"you dont want me to miss, do you? "

Now pull it tight
hold the end in your mouth
dont move
dont flinch
dont even say ouch.

So she pulls the belt tighter
and holds onto his arm
she feels the pinch
and knows it wont be long.

She removes the belt
and the room starts to spin
pure ephoria
she cant help but give in.

Her body so weightless
the high comes in one big wave
she lays back on the bed
from her pain she is saved.

I listen to your every word
then i,

repeat.
repeat.
repeat.
repeat.
repeat.

i analayze.

each paragraph,
each sentence,
each word,
each letter,
each syllable.

until i know the depths of its meaning.

when i sit there and stare off into the nothingness,
realization is the meaning of my silence.
my blank expression
shows your words are sinking in.

I have you figured out
every single ******* one of you.

I know what all your intentions are,
I see the hatred in your eyes
i hear the discust in your voice.

You think im stupid,
but i know.

i hear your wispers

i see you watching

i feel you following

and i cant escape.

theres ****
and then theres me and you.

you embody everything i hate,
future plans for two,
i now see as one,
theres no turning back
actions can't be undone.

Theres to many secrets
that would break our hearts,
sorry's just a word
and words arnt enough.

I love you's are empty
and kisses are cold,
if im lucky enough to hold you,
its like trying to cuddle with stone.

Im constantly reminded
of mistakes from my past,
i used to drown in your eyes
now im drowning in regret.

Nothing can change
final chances have been givin,
im afraid of life without you,
but this isnt how i can keep living.

Baby i tried
just not hard enough,
i promised you i wouldnt,
but its time to give up.

Love is something you give
and i cant make you feel

just answer me this..

will you miss me when you see me leaving is real?