brinn

brinn Jan 2020

None

No place.
I have none.
I go from location
to location.

Hoping one
will feel like home.
Wishing I could
feel like I belong.

But no place
Reaches out to me.
None belong to me
and I belong to none.

brinn Jan 2020

i miss me

i miss me
which sounds stupid.
and i know that.
but i used to be different.
i used to have
ambitions and dreams.
i used to think
anything was possible.

i was happy.

and now i have
none of that.
i don’t even feel like a person.
i don’t even feel.
i used to be me.

brinn Jan 2020

sad

i’m sad
just kind of
sad.
not really sure.
i’m not sure
if i’m sad inside
or just out.

brinn Jan 2020

i can’t

i wish i could say
what’s on my mind
but right now
i can’t even speak

brinn Jan 2020

stormy weather

the tears continue to fall down
drip drip drip
steady as rain

i try to stop them but my heart beats loud
boom boom boom
loud as thunder

i reach out but no one is there
i feel a chill and shiver
cold as a blizzard

my thoughts run wild
and i feel my mind dissociate
wild as a tornado

brinn Jan 2020

Yourself

I can’t believe
how stupid I’ve been.
Everyone told me
to stay clear and
that the only one
you cared about
was yourself.

I said I knew
they were all wrong,
it’s different with me.
But I was wrong.
They were all right.
You didn’t
and you don’t
care about anything
but yourself.

brinn Jan 2020

love sick

i knew right after it happened.
i felt my heart swell and grow inside my chest.
my cheeks burned hot
and my mind went blank.
there was no mistaking this feeling.

i hadn’t felt it in a while
i kind of hoped i never would again.
but you changed that with one look.
my hands got clammy
and my stomach did backflips.

and once it starts
there is no stopping it.
not until it ran its course.
i wonder if you realize
just how sick you made me.