you can't explain to someone how it's always raining
you know how hard it's poured for the last year
only you know how many times you've fallen and the water is ankle deep
don't you dare try to explain to someone who is only sunshine that you're drowning
the water is everywhere and they never knew you didn't know how to swim
don't bother telling them
they couldn't ever understand
people keep telling you to stand up they repeat it over again and again
stand up they say it's not that deep
but only you know how the water has built up inside you and only a cut can relieve the pressure
but you're five months clean and you just have to battle the ocean waves which are stronger than you
one day you might be stronger than the raging waves but as of tonight you are not
so I'd learn how to swim if I were you

I just ran a red light and I thought of you. but you always liked green lights better didn't you? you were always go go go. you never wanted to stop always on the move. do you remember when I needed to stop and I just needed a break? do you remember when you kept going, dragging me alone behind you. I remember vividly you taking me along for the ride. but I remember crystal clear when you didn't yield for me. you had to go you said, life doesn't stop for anyone. just like I didn't stop at the red light but I did stop when the other car hit me. I stopped when you left me all alone. it hurts and i miss you. I just needed a break I just needed time to think time to slow down and come to a complete stop. I tried to be like you and never stop but sometimes life is just too much and sometimes you run red lights because your mind is full of a boy who didn't stop long enough to love you back. but you always liked green lights better.