Your words burn like fire
They scrape at my skin
How could I desire
What couldn't have been
Tears sting my eyes
I squint til they close
I force them to dry
And I sniffle my nose
I pretend I'm alright
I pretend I don't care
I pretend you don't show up
In every nightmare
My smile is fake
It's so you don't see
I'm easy to break,
You can shatter me.
I wear this disguise
And I try to be strong
But one look in your eyes
And that's where things go wrong.
Your eyes were once loving,
Loving towards me.
But now I'm discovering
Thats what used to be.

You trampled over my heart
And I didn't leave behind a single footprint on yours.
You tore apart the puzzle I was building
And used the pieces to build your own.
You might be fine, just letting me go like this,
But I want you to know,
I'm
       Not
              Okay.
You left me believing you loved me,
Left me tiptoeing across a thin tarp,
Well now I've fallen through.
Don't you see?
You made me believe in our false love,
Which I just now realize was a lie.
I didn't see,
That this was your plan all along.
You never loved me.
But I thought you did.
And
        I'm
               Not
                       Okay.

red
A healthy, whole, beating heart
orange
Fading and breaking with each word
yellow
Staggered pumps, uneven bloodflow
green
Sick; of hate, or fake love rather
blue
Depressed, lonely, ignored
indigo
Blood barely crawling through my veins
violet**
Cold, dark, lifeless, gone

You cloud my brain
And its starting to storm.
Blowing through my mind
And replacing my thoughts
With rain.

And I wonder
If I ever drizzle across your mind
If I ever cause a breeze
Or even
         A single
                   Drop
                             Of rain
                                        At all
But I know
Your mind is full of sun
No cloud in sight.
While mine is dark
No sunshine seen
Through this blanket of clouds.

Cause when you love someone
Who doesn't love you...
                                          Well...
        ­                    The sky
             Is forever
    Gray
☁

Its funny, really
How you became the gun
Pointed at my head
The mosquito
Nagging at my skin
The knife
That threatened to tear me apart.
You became the ghost
That followed me
But you were never actually there,
Were you?
Just a figment of my imagination
All along.
Driving me insane
With every thought
I wasted on you

I'm a house of cards you built
One blow from caving in
I'm a single scrap of paper
One rip to tear my skin

I'm a fragile piece of glass
One slip and I am shattered
I'm a jar that's filled with paint
One drop and I am splattered

It's your decision it's your choice
Will you preserve my fragile heart?
It's your decision it's your choice
Or will you tear my hope apart?
It's your decision it's your choice
What will you choose, you have a voice

Although I can be strong
I'm not when I'm in your arms
One blink and you'll be gone
Don't know how I'll go on
Without you

How will I know
If my heart's made of glass
Until you go
And break it