Body alone

She could have done so much better

Now they have a child together

Her laugh is broken as ever

Slit wrists don't make her shudder

Tomorrow they awake with fever

Another cigarette is the only endeavor

Let's creep silently

Quietly

In this instance, maniacally

For my love, in its entirety

Is nothing but a sobriety

And your neck throbs in syncopated sweat

Pleasing ascension

One final night drive

Listening to the lullaby from lost river

I've been searching for you
In an endless sea of white
Torrential
With a frail head
And split intentions
Searching memories
Currents of you
Bringing scars of past breaths
Half buried
A cruel reminder
Of how deep this can go
Magnetic
Sum of parts brush past
Impure space
Glowing total
You are so near
Falling with grace
I want you
And will wait once more

Suffocation via ceilings
Roots growing in my marrow
Battery acid injections
Sweet warmth with glass bones
Waiting for a change we can stomach
Hope left days ago
Dying in a concrete world
But with this pain you will never show
And with my pain you will never know
It's insane but I'm meant to grow

Beautiful death
Shiny handles on your sister's casket
Denial of a thousand doors
A shadow's noise
To examine a dull moon
Kinder notice with innocence grasping
Angel awake
A stomach full of ocean
Rapture saves, a pool fades
There are no second questions
And at last
Her weeping
Removed

I want everything to become how it once existed

The foolishness of youth
Long cars ride with empty promises on my lips
To dig my nails into the earth again and feel safe

This perished effort to move on leaves me tainted

Next year will not be better

My love for sleep continues with great pace
I sit and stare with smoky eyes

You remain as a still in my rusted memory

All of our memories now wasted away
Page break
My mother's voice downstairs
Stretched dawn
Tonight's drippings
Dreams of your torn mouth
Visions again of a failed birth
Glass and it's promised demise
Cancerous resonance
(slit)Flushed(slit)
(exit)Naked(exit)
(fail)This how I feel(fail)
Being driven away
White coats and tourniquets

She blinks at you from across the room
Unsure, you move to a corner table
You ask about film
The most predictable subject of all
It's good
With a quiet rasp settled in the back of her throat
Darting eyes
Slivered retractions of fingertips
Hold
It's a command, almost
Bringing a stack of books, they're left in front of you
You're grateful and surprised
A turn of the shoulder and she's gone
Night falls and you're reminded you need rest
You're approached by her on the way to your car
Drunk, but concerned, you listen for now
Shuffled into a long drive is all you can remember
When your eyes glaze back to the scenery
You're in a gray slate parking garage
A table laid before you
It won't hurt that much she says
You see a syringe, a box, shreds of paper
An idle black electronic device sitting in front
You barely stand
Static from a TV is noticed
But across the street through smudged windows
There's nothing in it she says
A belt is tied around your right bicep
Your arm becomes a veined map
A piece of paper appears
You grasp and write 7-0-0-1 and 2-9-6-4
Smoke settles within your midst
Hums and tragedy fill your thoughts
You don't know if this is you

It's again open season
Yet there remains no vacancy
No rooms for rest
Salmon kite
Days of nostalgia
Free float
Pure trist
Illis quotes Amber
The fungus grows larger
A beast and a rifle to burden this momentum
Falling through a mother's pine
One thousand banes in the form of love
A mother's work is never done
Ninth dynamic
Four hours and this is forged again
Silver screams heard through golden temples
Dust settles, the bricks fall
A mile of bone penetrates the pyramid
Bringing new forms of energy
Satan's toothpick
And sharp fur for another
Ghost conductor entering messages
Down there, he eats in a fit of slothful rage
In fits of overdosed shrubbery
***** clocks
Each hollows and fades you
Advanced romance as strands won't return
Dirt searches for your face in the midnight hours
Artificial chains
Lead by burns
Idolatry commencement

We can't remember our broken landscapes
A failure for another day
The portrait of how easy it is to sever chains
Now a picture lost
Handling these fortunes with damage
This is your disaster
A mansion's space filled with no stirs and burning timbers
Tonight thinking of torn moments
A weight with beautiful form
To focus on what is taken and what remains
To taint, that is our goal
Pink ***** running red
A green or blue fortune and its rust filled transfiguration
Cursed legacies
Not shameful but young
Slipping past collapse
For seasons of drownings
Hopeful and bare
Drown in the semi circles of her asymmetrical chest
Rest in a navel full of seed
Spilled in the vain context of a quickening fleeting love
Humanized anger lay naked
Core liquid
Lonely ground
Ecstasy burst
Infinite devour
Mother's sores heal
My own weep and lactate
A siren welcome
Sung and swayed
Reflections at a dark dawn

I feel duality in your breath
Blue spirals
A dying wave
We were nothing

Felt like coming home
A heavy wake slain
Calm with pearl floors
Siren melodies
Air replaced by gasoline
Realizing a colder patience
Simple hold
A torn waiting
You burn a stained memory
But know this
I saw the light
On the day he died
Eyes open wide

I still would not believe you
A smell of damage
Laughing as your nightmare flickers
Vague proclamation to destroy
Asleep on a girl's hips
Our insanity has fallen by the river
Why must it be like this

We wish to know our own names
Sounds of thunder move you inside

These secrets bled long ago
A four-hundred year candle blown out
Now separated
Your bedroom window
A hidden floor
Static sheets
Finding me flushed and infectious
Raw
And with power unreal

Grace moves in these structures
Virginities undersold
Saving familiar breaths
Tissue restraint
I head away and leave my name
A kinder morning than we've shared before
Finding Jesus in a Subaru
Unable to create from ashes
Stained glass
This glass is stained

Y el dolor sigue ahí
Ahora ido
Tuya eternos

Just keep me alive
Sleep pendulation
Deluxe cell reincarnation
Mercy lays upon you adept and compatible
Subliminal narration
Your recurring shadow children
Unfiltered anguish
Disillusionment
Cruelly I recall

Securing your perfection
A glossy light
Held by two strings from a dying star
Six million noises put in their place
Chrysalis agony

Your breath held undying
Cloned eyes
Gazing a solitary entrance
Loneliness sequence
Capturing a scarab in synesthesia

Un nom de plume
It doesn't matter where
Tout enfin
Vous atteignez répit
Pas de lutte
Nous tenons cette mort
Comme un courant sous-jacent
Vos échecs vous ordonnez
Vicious
But not unnoticed

Window storm
Refraction of opal hair
Gatherings of a salvaged flock
Incomprehensible
A series of melted bruises
Final lap of my somnolence
Short of my hands around your throat
You may promise nothing
Stop us

Impossibly transporting desperation
We skip to a deafening consumption
Complex sirens
Photo sterilization
Hysterics
Paranoia
Grief without repentance
More of your witnessed erosion

A chamber promise nothing less
Pre-screened destiny
This is how the night begins
We slip inside our seventh skins
One minute and thirty-nine seconds
On short circuit

The waiting
And the darkness therein
Bending of lights
As I stood in awe
Of the architecture of flames burnt
So lovely
The ghosts within those walls
Whole again with dream-like motion
At once
Sitting on a boat outside the city
Seemingly limitless
Staring into that great abyss
Always searching
Always waiting
For you to find me
Shaking in the misty morning sunrise
To return from the sun being dipped
Gone
And if I find you
Take my hand
Stroll the dimly lit corners of this city
Please know that fear cannot touch us
And walk into tomorrow
As the same day

I still can't say you've recovered
I still can't say you've died

The most unholy of nights
A hibernation from servitude
Ghostly
Grey
Illuminated
You send him to decrease the pain within

Still to be seen
Awakening a deceased compromise
Mirrored prey
Driven by enveloped creation
Fever consummation
Visions of your childhood home underwater

Make my heart stir once more

Furthering a silicon sickness

Unreachable this time

Sworn from these graces so long ago

An immense melody scarring reflections

This too will haunt our past

Speaking with bruised wrists

All roads home are now erased

Mountains yielding permanence

Emerging with gorgeous anticipation

Shed their fallen attempts

For your eyes are not green

They were born from the most ancient of moss

Wrapped in a dripping globular of starlit jade

Leave me here by the forest
Revealing measured suffering
Confusion of a knife
Denied importance
Swallowing common voids
Unspoken process
Hungering for faceless absolution
Lighthouse eyes
A funeral in full bloom

And it will never go away
With blameless transcendence
Delicate machines choking
Slowing perpetuated logic
Failure in a green pool
Weaker to welcome
Power lines down in October
A spiders ninth leg
Phantom systems asleep
Backyard rapture
Circling hope as a drain opens

We will share this death
Unrest with subtle detection
Further collapse
A lighter consumption
Agony prone
Shutters open to relax veins
Focus with a decayed world
You're still learning to stand
Remembering the end
Passing twisted resonance
Bottled winter
Half-bruised with buried innocence
You want to be known

Because you prefer it
Winding down with a stranger in bed
Your prayers and future lost
Better fasting in mind
With a heart that jumps too freely
Just a window glow
As night comes for these shards
Your swiftly torn undercarriage
Vexed to the incalculable
Bleeding out under hot water faucets

Branches of regret
Pillars of imagined perfection
Restored features
Optional decaying cells
Moments trickling into chaos
Waking from a black frame
Your melted singing voice

Sealed in space
Motionless love theme
Neglecting a soul saved
Precipitated malice
Unoriginal to a shameful crypt
Rearranged embrace
A slave within
You keep steady warmth in Denver
I wither continually in Memphis

Shattered glass as the curtain drops
Noticeable yawns of immortality
Agreed now we breathe
A ***** of pain
I die twice on tile floors
However we will change
To a gradual descent
Your bloodline dead
Teeth keep you still
Everything left to God is quiet now
Simple dreams
Our mistakes lay downstairs
There's nothing more

And you're still with me
In every rolling wave
Warranting unclean requests
For a reflection of freedom
Concealed below
It's the edge of cold perfection
As we surface for solutions
Doubting your grace exists
Feeling the gravity of an escape
Celestial restrain
Persistent devotion

Translucent
A burned dream
Fingertips at trembling galaxies
Remembering stolen breaths
Dismantled from rusted logic
A steel garden flourishes
Sealed with infectious passion
A reflection of mirrored pain
Emerging bloodless depths
Rising to a caged silhouette
Shrouded in sacrifice

The ground quietly settles
In search for a final lover
Innocent strength forming freedom
Rendering gleaming muscles useless
Pricing a broken smile
Beholding a discarded identity
A prayer with cancelled meaning
Glimpse these trembling signs
When they awake to drown indifference
Commit this confusion
Losing my souls inheritance
Hollowed demands
With healing desperation
Consume my sworn efforts
As we fuel a reborn process
And collapse with tangible wounds
She wept with haunting surrender
I mourned a dangerous solace

It's all over now
Lovely but forgotten
Showing less each time
Bathing unspoken insecurities
Envisioning whispered structures
Not bereft of your distant existence
Birthed features fading again
Useless rhythm keeping time
Trapped completely
Stripped of a promised exit
The start of your electric identity
Savage instruments underneath
I collapsed with convicted acceptance
An evening with dissolved delicacy
Dozing on your eternal shoulders