Take your time.
Become intoxicated by patience;
as if you are waiting for nothing
but living for everything.
Let every moment saturate
your being,
seeking not to ring yourself
dry again
but to accept more

I am a beautiful person who has been for a long time. I have a job. I have a choice. The only thing that I have to go to is the best way. I'm sure that you can also be able to manage the same as the best. Though don't settle for less.  I will not be the first one to have a good idea and share the news. My favorite part is that the company has been in the future of this message was delivered to your site and your friends and family members seen it coming.  Respect is due to a Dog live life love life.

Inspiration, worship, venerate
To me you are more than words can implicate
Docile, pull me away just don't lead me astray
I chose happy over horrid, to cherish over destroy it
Miles between us I tend to ignore it, cause there isn't anywhere I'll go or come to and see my feeling for you flourish
If it's an open road I'll floor it
Unfamiliar places exploited
Casting more than a net to catch this dream
Appalled by past situation defaulted her meen
I do what I say and say what I mean
A chance taken for a risk given
Reasoning for the "why" am I living
I adore you I get it....

How can elaborate with the means to procrastinate
You portray it's good you say we are straight
A person of  qualities you demonstrate
Conniving, bitter, egotistical, fake
Perplexed as to this topic so late
Though it's sympathetic I relate
Half of it true I don't understand
Being a critic why not give Hollywood a chance
And deliberately I there is an invade
So words spread with intentions to engrave
Feelings are something you acknowledge
Some tend to ignore
Know things is not nothings
The conceited people are.

Long years dispute not engage with mortality
.. constant hard to please days and unforgettable nights
Time passes with the past of our condolences
Making more apologies than she notices
Pain has all the control, while anger feeds off that
Asking where are you going?! Though the responds is "I'm never coming back"
Elusively saying things I don't mean believing the obvious respectfully outseen.

no end like the big blue sky
Dense by shallowness for this life has Force
Conscience of oneself in predicaments that you asks questions
Mind blisters, wanting incredible to gleam impeccable
Chancing what's seems to be one chance
Give to be, although, taking can be the cause of effect
It's all for respect as to it's all for a check
All victory go to God but does the devil deserve an abject
Kids that disrespect from parents that don't "Say it wit ya chest!"
Living to die, shoot for your goal, but don't glutton over success
Induct to fake smiles no cares its been that way for awhile...

Numbness and tingling with abnormal sensations has occur everywhere in my body, but are often felt in my chest and abdominal a thought causes painful, involuntary contraction of my muscles, fatigue and strain. Rankling discontent, 
especially from envy or jealousy; grudge.
Emotions are flaring judgement is clouding my thoughts
Entwined like  knots bind to myself with some other object obstructed of the air from the environment into the lungs. 
I just miss you.

I want to give you my mind body and soul I want to wrap up with your love and see how it unfolds
assure to be your yes of you knows, show you with the intention to guide
give you benevolent while I'm by your side
I don't want you to be wrong if I'm Mr. Right being your savory of the day like a knight
Trust in me to Carrie you to hold onto you  like you was going to come loose
Fulfilling your desire with foods of loyal and honesty  having that acceptance to allow as an introvert
Knowing I have to do more when I say it and you less when I do it
Appreciation of my love freshen your mind like a cert
Accept pulling you closer with the gesture of a ****
Immediately our hearts inverse and forever was we conjured
Like Jesus came to Mary I will be your prohet and speak our destination to reality
Acknowledging that God will not give us more than we can bear
Where you are I want to be with you I'll come anywhere Carrie me there.

Disasters tangles better luck than none
Chances mistaken no discretion for some
Buzzards gotta eat as so to worms
dying on the road of tears as the white man seeks up behind me again
Change only as the sun hide and the moon enlighten
Surrender to give in order to receive
Though is better to give than receive
Look for good to come though patience is a virtue
Real slow like molasses in the winter time
Clouds in the sky floating like dreams in the mind
Taken to be scarce entitled to much in return for nothing
Sorrows

Full speed ahead
Like a crash dummy
Seeking relativity walking in stores to waste time and don't have any money
Lingering to make sense of holding on
Not knowing so you drink Ensure to stay strong
Convinced of what she say though it doesn't last that long
Disrespectful to her but you want that bih to throw ya dawg a bone
Getting old like the cabbage patch
Catching habits in this habitat
Today you riding the wave or you drown
We make a come up or getting drugged to the ground
Simplest things aren't easy anymore
That's why we go hard
Taking what we don't got and a little more.

It’s so incredible what I feel for you and if you don’t know it yet I’m so in love with you
I will never be unsure of what I am or what I want because I am yours and I want to always make you happy
You fill my steps with enthusiasm and give my prays an answer with you I'm in tune with my emotions I share my space with you
Lonely with you I will not be cause you make me complete you are my air when I'm drowning in misery
If a man is not all what you think of me you give that light in order to seek  embracing my thoughts so no pain will leak empathy for your love here is my speech
From a man there's was woman from a woman born a man you are my rib you make me complete

Based my life from the corner
In amidst to going forward
Threw blankets on flat floors
Hung lights on back doors
With a limited amount of space
Choices made with consensual looks behide your back
Gratitude attract bad vibes without enough love to go around
Trust is a word for those who knows what it means
Back against a wall in disputable values
Confused and off track of how to deal with problems
Asking what's real self control keeping inside myself from closing within
Custer
On the edge literally can't get a grip, it's a trip
No one around wants to save you or have the intentions
Brace between two walls taking initiative cause I might be here awhile....

Sank is to float as rise is to fall
Gift is to prize as celebrate is to ball
Life is a must as to crime is to criminals
Endure is to touch as to questions are subliminals
To be full it's enough as a dream is an epiphany
So trust to be fooled as we surrender to save
Are we moving forward to get back kiss *** to be in front
That's *** backwards¡
Tolerate ignorance to be smarter ones
Acceptance of the small comings and you are being the bigger man
Fly before you stand, be all you can be with no upper hand
Raise is to uplift overseeing is not to understand
Sharing is caring and it's better to give than receive
To have is to own although possession is 9/10 of the law these days
To grasp is just a moment but you have to hold on.. be strong..is what they'll say

I made you crazy?
You drove me crazy
and yet I dont know how I made her crazy
It wasnt fair for her to be crazy
Im not sorry for making you crazy
I wish you could take my place and  not be crazy
tell me a way show me a way and make me crazy
Your heart hurts cause you made my friends crazy
Change? I dont want you to be crazy
Someone help me, help her, she's crazy
take away his pain that made her crazy
I dont like how I made you crazy
But I didnt do it on purpose, I didnt even know I was making her crazy
I wish I could take it all back and she leave me crazy
I'm crazy

Uncensored thoughts passed in unusual places
Giving opportunist a change to make the devil work complete
Not in tune with the whole scratch ones back to have yours scratched back
Living in today you have to accept the dislikes of others and treat them as a naive child
Though life throws you lemons after lemons but with insufficient funds your not able to make anything out of it
I'm not good at physic being in physical form every thing so complicated now
Asking for help nowadays is like expecting snow in florida
Girls are damaged so relationships don't last Men are incapable so your goals will crash
All we have left to blame it on is the government and it's like blowing hot air useless
Trying too hard will get you in insuring and if you don't try you will get nothing
It's either make it or take it (chances, that is)
And luck is but a mere share of faith which many don't possess so
Questions stills need answered sweet on the inside rough outside the edges.

PEOPLE are the craziest and most hypothetical people around they want equality but won't demonstrate it saying **** Paris cause of Kenya but why not just pray for both!!!! PEOPLE **** me with they're sense of self entitlement when you or your mama wasn't no slave the world fucced up if no generation forgives the previous or the next we'll always be divided as a country and it be the ones who ain't and won't do **** to change it always posting the bs! PEOPLE be doing **** to help destroy the black race but then turn Around and wanna post this America don't Care about PEOPLE **** on my timeline so if you ******* ,sale drugs,rap about negative **** or anything that makes our race more ****** up.
PEOPLE **** U A HYPOCRITE AND GET OFF MY TIMELINE WIT DA BS!!!! NOW PRAY FOR ANYONE IN TROUBLE N NEEDS HELP JESUS DONT SEE COLOR FOOL!!!!!

Vibrant, strong, pleasant
The beginning of a phenomenal period of time
Special, courteous, vigorous
Becoming evident to the mind
You brighten my sky taking away the darkness in my life
Cautious with concern of your feelings I want to be a better man for you
In a hurry to make you happy even though time is a virtue
Thinking of ways to make our life a statement of endurance
I would stop breathing if that keeps you from talking my breathe away
Infatuated with your "why" and "what's”
Prefer to accommodate your "hows" and "wants"
Intrigued by your "now's” and "don't s"
You are a phenomenal period in my time and it's becoming evident to my mind.

Is there anything I haven't said to you?
yet any promises I haven't fulfilled?
my righteous will be justified as I aim to please at your will together is what I want
and to be happy is more to see
but what the future behold for us is up to you and me

In the process of wanting
Lead to only be distracted by this slim built feminist queen
Introduce with names and good cohesion
Common things you see though expectations are high guaranteed are sure
Don't intrigued by the current situation on things you misconceived
I know I am a man the virtue of a woman should not be overwhelming
Fantasy designer clothing covers up insecurities
Lacking the common sense we need to contribute to our own we are giving the wrong ideal even when it's plain to see
We complain, we protest, we lust, all in all we don't do anything to accomplish
Digging holes to be filled up with water to drown ourselves not being allowed to achieve something with means because the credentials aren't strong enough is denial

Scrutinized days I carry a burden that is latch to me like a navie baby looking forward though what'she on my back is noticeable a sign of achieving is nours

As elegant and beautiful with the days progression shown through vivid imagination
Though harsh tines approach as to the wind blows she is as thorough for her petals remain full nothing less
Egotistical personal gives hope to ones seeking matriarch
But with inspiration vivacious and true words spoken there is no need to fabricate
Criticism is ubiquitous no matter how you embellish life
She is germane to me, so euphoric
To ignore theses feelings of cherish and adore is to be incomplete, like a house with no doors or Windows
As docile as emotions are there is no courageous act than to grow in the cast of a shadow and believing this is in your best interest
With her thrones pricked the most sensitive spot I still approach with indirection on my way
Thoughts pass as I want to asks and the moment fades so the questions remain
How is there fear in my feelings?
Stubbornness just isn't enough I need devotion and determination
Am I still a "person of interest"?
It was all good just a week ago.

Lost in the sweet feelings of gratefulness
of making love and the zeal to please
she who knows how to sway mercy from disdain
she who aggravates or sweetens my chains
mesmerizing me during sad or tranquil hours
increasing my affections with her indifference
she who holds the authority and the power
to keep account of my joys, my love, and my pain

What's the point? Why do I need to know half of this?
When I fell for some scamp ****** shenanigans
Ghetto raised not a life that heaven sent
High school graduate street life is all that'll make sense
If you want to be there it's your typical event
I can't be happy poor so I will get mad rich.

Woke up in a bliss
I ain't happy about ****
No woman to even kiss on
Let alone call on the phone
Too blister in coming home
Out putting such off in my lungs
No filtler can't hold my tongue
Just started and say she done
Too gone to make her come
Absent from absentia mysteriously mistaken as if it's too good to be true
Asking for more than I can chew
Light bill past due
Thoughts of who I could *****
Nostalgic way to take a chance
Just another to day to be a man
Ridiculed for haven't advanced
How I suppose to know how you feel
Interesting...
Living my life based off someone else perspective
Laughing cause it's funny, all the way to bank
Drown in your own sorrows..shht have another drink?!

Seek what I can't find lust for something forbidden I care to much and to not receive anything I'm am lost at sea with no paddle or sail just floating in a wave of wonder I screamed for it to echo off the pail of delusion. I Am stuck though I am not drowning I'm head over Hills in something castaway to the wolves for a entre of misery. Death is around the corner literally shall I release my anger upon the seagull that **** on me for the last time, fair to those in the eyes of weaknesses although I can't bring myself to the sea level like a lifeless bodies I will rise to be carried away by the current and back to land to start anew. Til then I sank as a anchor with no bond to hold anything down to the bottomless-cold pit of darkness there I will be amongst differential of oneself. Seeking what I can't find wanted to be noticed.

Wants, are your ******* of making something good for a satisfaction of a spare desire
Embracing, the fact that your will to choose is in favor of what makes you happy
Although you Can, you are able to; determination gives you more of a basis to lack there of
Nothing, wants more for your loneliness to starve you of your excitement taunting you silence having no prospect of progress.
Hope, carrying you like a carriage summoned on a timid night through times of disparity in means to Keep Things Alive
Need, is what makes things change possessing the power to make things happen, if and when they do come together that clarity of you needed that is in suspense..

Itchiness burning pain swelling or bleeding in this morning so we wool and that is why this to be with you and that is why I  went home and to give it to my brother Tay to......

Rocket ships blazes as my feelings grow no more
you share as much space in my head as the air progresses
do not taunt me with I miss yous and full my inbox up with how are yous spare me the theatrics
I can't sympathize anymore or try to pretend I care
I will not criticize my self into these conditions which have brought me nothing literally nothing
if you need me I won't be there
If you feel you can't live without me **** yourself for I am already dead inside
Two wrongs don't make it right and to be a victim is not what I would call a fight
But through the gruesome taboos in deceiving life I think I'll go with this green light
Discretion, recitation, rescission, all that you are the metaphor if loving you for one more night I have to strife

It all happen so quickly I was way over my head
I jump in with no clue with what I was capable of
Confusion hit me first deceiving me of my natural feelings
Anxiety was next snatching away the patience of what there is to come
Confidence was install hiding behide the lack there of
Curiosity didn't make it any better for I was suppose to know already
Happiness is out the door cause we have no window to throw it out of
Deception follows with taunts of those who are there just to be nosy and share no anticipation to help
Angry plays a part with deception giving an ultimatum
Though Love is the key that gets me through it all and let's me be thankful I have another day to feel these feelings.

You said you'd never ever break... down
But here I am sweeping... pieces off of the ground
You said you'd never, ever play... to down
But I've heard you running game to them now
I've spent all night long scared of tomorrow, broke my alarm
Everything is almost lost, pick it up slow, before it's gone...
I'm fragile I never thought would of been so fragile.

I'm from the bottom where more than water lie, sick girls looking for victims another person to mortify, where it's a more or less chance you will be in jail from somebody who testified, than high-speed chase in broad day and you crashing out.
It's all about what you do no one cares what your talking about,nothing is for free or given to you, so get a hustle or be without
Whatever take a chance be a Man so what if you have doubts
It's better to know than want sympathy looking for handouts
Cause you only get out of life what you put in it
And a little can only go so far
Criticize by the best of the best F@#k them know who you are.

I work hard, hardly work, hard's the work, they be smoking that **** until they heart burst, in the hard murks, the devil is lurking his heart hurts, looking too hard though hollows will rip your hard shirt, and they out, Erk! Back to the beach with no certs, where they don't perk, surf, and treat girl for what they are worth, the world has allot of Kurts but Casanovas just overworked, Three-time felonies and them Athens that go to church, plus police make it worst "protect and serve" it's more like "protect and survive" cause they shooting first and it seems "blacks" are the ones that decriminalize. (Through our eyes)
It's Hard.

Gone for years to a different states ago the way across the world
Things are not the same at this different place
Your actions are at a caution because of your new surroundings
If you stay what are you going to do no experience in anything work ethnic
Raised in the streets selling for and dope and other narcotics
Look up to those in the same establishment commence to the only thing he knows
It's more comfortable to him and the questions stop
And the money starts coming in the women giving there attention
He wanted something more, something else, something different

Basically **** gets old
You get tired of taking chances
Your tired of giving chances
Then it all boils down to you just have to let people go.
To regards with bind adoration.

Bills piling shots firing I'm trying to find a way
Introverse with her whining carrying on now confounding
Uncomfortably I lay arrest the facts on should I stay
Consideration out the door confide my thoughts ample the roar
Patience, interests, attachments, evanesced
Love, desire, allegiance, suppressant
Quiescent our days spent questions asks nowhere to vent
While time progress the strongest may stick thus, what is done we forget is effects of Decay theorist
Faults will be blamed and blames will be fault
Obsessed with an solution that disinterested us with doubt
Moue and pout scrutinizing about ubiquitously we well figure this out
Grind, fail, comes with travail enough of both will prevail
for the time being mistakes are edit abate, the ****, cusp, the tail,
CREDITS

She is a daughter to a father and a mother but to you She is no one though she wants to be loved.
Breed from fields and meadow parks with dirt roads over the outskirts of th her foundation.
Cute, petite little-thing with the biggest hearts to overcome dreams, being submerged in negativity from false families to no family.
Disguise by laughs and group intramurals she was told she was a liability.
As she was lied to
She was lied down and stripped of her abilities shamed to laugh this was humility.
Searching for the "whys" she endured in a man who treats her like what she is used to.
Good girl bad situation happy days sad nights.
Opportunity to be giving what she deserves and she neglects what is truly hers.
We try to find these things out but in reality we are just pawns in the next move unsure you have to make better choices and feel with different emotions.
Half of a smile only last for awhile.

You are something inscribed.
A historical,religious, a impale deep cut, impressed, scribble, or written on stone, brick, metal, or other type of hard suet.
A brief, usually informal dedication, as of a book or a break at work lunch.
Something of the past, a mere thought, notes to study, a broke person with cash, a wall of straw, a ?#&! Buddy!

Emotions are my lesson on what can hurt my pride
This is something of digression through how I live my life
Tainted like a disease I exclude myself from the obscene
With the means to indulge I rather not intervene
Cause there is anger entwined and my actions may be attracting
And progression is effective and might be a distraction
So a act of silence is common to one's things
But belligerence  accommodates inevitable change
Thus, what was lost shall be another aberration
For which it stands for your toleration
Under fraud and nothing at all.

Started from good to bad
from nice to eh
How things can be so liberal to takeoff heads because of a couple of words said
My senses tell me to have more common sense and dollars are not the only things that make cents
Enticed by your demeanor
Influenced by the way you move
Encourage through your words
I'm lost in you and it's a struggle to find myself again
Though it's bonds and sleepwalking nights over here, on the other side the grass is greener
One day I'll get over my pride
Faulting the situation trying to find every excuse
Questioning myself now
Losing grip of reality hoping for my Coretta
Misconceptions of my image as I am just a fish in a big pond fighting to get off this hook
With insides as cold as ice my flesh is humid as Florida summers
I push on or digging this hole deeper contemplating taking my head off with this same shovel
Consuming too much everything coming from a different angle
Disturbed but interested in awe of suspension
Reaching out to receive nothing but to lend a hand
But all you get is criticism and taunts, fake smiles and grunts
And here you stand still. ......

You displayed an images as shy-timid I wouldn't dare say innocent for the nights we park on the beach and proceeded to make memories
Days passes with nights as our mists of the hour we dwelled in
Grouping in no intentions of misleads in my direction
Communication was stable but acknowledgment was cradled
I think I wasn't as spunky and didn't want to take advantage on her insecurities of being chunky
Through lack of creativity there was nothing left cause there was no call for change
I only lead myself to believe it was just a phase skepticism play a part here
Sympathizing when I could of cared less but curious on my motives
Now her motives things are going unnoticed share is to  sheer as
Care; disregard to now from start I should of played hard
Since I am questioning nowadays who we are?

I'm here and your there
378 miles away separate our intimacy
Despite the fact communications are screened off Androids
We are like aliens unknown of a surroundings area
Pleasures arise with thoughts of memories
Distraught submerge along as space is in between
Passive words builds strength needed for carrying on alone
Wilting trust leaves not much of anything to hold on to
She says "we will see each other again"
Discrimination can halter a whole country from unionism
Especially if the family is use to racism
A typical analogy oil (black)and water (white) dont mix
But like hydrophilic and hydroponic we stick
Love energetically keeps it all together
in a manner showing: The day we are together again, involving great activity
Holding you close embracing your body with mine will substain vitality.
.

Woke up in a bliss
I ain't happy about ****
No woman to even kiss on
Let alone call on the phone
Too blister in coming home
Out putting such off in my lungs
No filtler can't hold my tongue
Just started and say she done
Too gone to make her
Absent from absentia mysteriously mistaken as if it's too good to be true
Asking for more than I can chew
Light bill past due
Thoughts of who I could *****
Nostalgic way to take a chance
Just another to day to be a man
Ridiculed for haven't advanced

live life with enthusiasm destined hardiness due to the harshness
Lacking the right guidance with so many choices we all interpretive heartfelt condolences to the families who have been a incurious
"Should be" as in past tense goes without saying some individuals are not capable to accelerate but we all have those interject with situations enough is enough just make it deploy indiscretion instead of misperception
Questions will not always have a answer to your concerns faith is the only thing we can believe in
You settle for the well-written incentive purpose
This is only the blueprint to or construction build to your desire
Cherish,be grateful, prefer a Just way disaffection those unavoidable dreams.

Meet you on false pretenses though it was convenient I was to much appreciative of the the brutal taps through out the night as we slept as friends in the same area
You was a woman with promiscuous intentions but was dealing with self esteem issues as if that had anything to do with it I offered myself to your life as a gentlemen, as you announced I was your first relationship and I took that in consideration and treated you as gentle as welded flowered should be tended to.
We shared moments and made memories conversations was of future reference of the possessible of stablemates in hence there was bad times mistakes were made and I push you to things I believe was in the back of your mind in the beginning
You gave Me faith when doubt was an option, taunted by racism in your family but was tested and failed miserably by the flesh trust is a broken bridge that will not be cross because it's not stable.
So together was shared with phone calls and day visits only when work allowed and company was no more secret was in midst of it all  "We" were tainted "us" was not involving me anymore exploring was a concern of mine friends really want friends trying there luck with you as you express your singleness.
Apologizes was said forgiveness was given but the memories couldn't not be forgotten
And words cutting deeper than a knife reaping what I sow moving on looks like necessity.
Blames became the accuser avoidance allowed satisfaction stability became a problem though the feeling was not mutual in cahoots with a certain lifestyle looking forward why turn around convenient for *** nothing less nothing more til the feeling demobilized and there was no more.
Dwelling, emphasizing, considering, clarity became the only solution mentality changes  self-respect  development to another person  Time and patience leads to forgive and forgetting
Tears are shed the lives are lead with  misconception and deception to be repression among others I love myself and respect my choice to be is to live to hurt, to be hurt and not be held by chains and etc observance.

Is it love?
She trusts you as far as she can throw you
Is it love?
She kicking you out of her house every other week
Is it love?
She calls you all types of names and degrades you
Is it love?
She attacks you and leaves you feeling guilty
Is it love?
She with another guy and has a baby on the way
Is it love?
She doesn't see you anymore and the texts stop coming
Is it love?
She just wants one thing from you
Is it love?
When she tell you she loves you

If someone asks me why am I in a good mood today I would say because I am blessed to see another day
To stop in mid conversation in wonder off into a daydream with no intentions to carry on a conversation with whom is not a person of interest though a friend
Should I be enjoying myself at this luminous party with those who are cheery and joyous around me sharing the same equities, as another bottle is being open with guitar hero with karaoke in the background in rotation, I am lost in thought
I try but there is not enough clubbing or  flashing light for a distraction another drink will only infuse the matter, to which I owe myself no apology, as the saying "you made your bed now you have to lay in it"
We have these feelings that are uncontrollable but at the same time you are in a situation to not want to confuse this person written lies of discouragement it's the feeling of sheer passion to indulge and she knows so she smiles with intentions to make you want to say Hello
As you stand beside her taunted by a laugh or a glance that leads to us being together and sharing moments of the future
If someone was to asks me why I am in a good mood I think I would tell them it's her.

Good is a growing word.
It's a destructing thing to those who wish the worst.
Unable to indulge in anything other than good.
Facing forward so that is the way I go.
Can't change anything but myself, my path, my choices, My wrongs.
Kinda rusty in a field I haven't dab at in awhile.
Dressing everyday like a salad smiling with every bite I take.
Constructive criticism with every good intent.
Dreams shattered with tropical stroms winds that picks you up, but takes you nowhere.
Takes every breathe in me not to take it one step further.
Feels like I'm going I'm going circle.