We smile, laugh, joke together in these times I believe in happiness though you mistaken a common opinion with a strike for intrusion confused I asks questions to you they seem surreal thoughts are now victimized and encouragement turns to congregation doubts pass I want you to understand a simply misuses of words my challenges are defeated with sharp interruptions in a roar but seldomly spoken so you prance in your wonders of solitude as I sit debating my rights
Another day shoots like a star among the scarred sky and kicked up dust is hidden the trails we have provided for those
We smile, laugh, joke together in these times I believe in happiness

You displayed an images as shy-timid I wouldn't dare say innocent for the nights we park on the beach and proceeded to make memories
Days passes with nights as our mists of the hour we dwelled in
Grouping in no intentions of misleads in my direction
Communication was stable but acknowledgment was cradled
I think I wasn't as spunky and didn't want to take advantage on her insecurities of being chunky
Through lack of creativity there was nothing left cause there was no call for change
I only lead myself to believe it was just a phase skepticism play a part here
Sympathizing when I could of cared less but curious on my motives
Now her motives things are going unnoticed share is to  sheer as
Care; disregard to now from start I should of played hard
Since I am questioning nowadays who we are?

Disasters tangles better luck than none
Chances mistaken no discretion for some
Buzzards gotta eat as so to worms
dying on the road of tears as the white man seeks up behind me again
Change only as the sun hide and the moon enlighten
Surrender to give in order to receive
Though is better to give than receive
Look for good to come though patience is a virtue
Real slow like molasses in the winter time
Clouds in the sky floating like dreams in the mind
Taken to be scarce entitled to much in return for nothing
Sorrows

Seek what I can't find lust for something forbidden I care to much and to not receive anything I'm am lost at sea with no paddle or sail just floating in a wave of wonder I screamed for it to echo off the pail of delusion. I Am stuck though I am not drowning I'm head over Hills in something castaway to the wolves for a entre of misery. Death is around the corner literally shall I release my anger upon the seagull that **** on me for the last time, fair to those in the eyes of weaknesses although I can't bring myself to the sea level like a lifeless bodies I will rise to be carried away by the current and back to land to start anew. Til then I sank as a anchor with no bond to hold anything down to the bottomless-cold pit of darkness there I will be amongst differential of oneself. Seeking what I can't find wanted to be noticed.

As if a witch  appeared in front of me in a puff of smoke, I was transfixed — Me standing there  mouth open, unable to look away, as if held by some magic power. Not use to this I strategize a exit. Lies, pessimistic conlicts, mused with disturbed behavior. Łike being infected there are side effects a breathe of fresh air is relief to asthma, a cup of tea is for nausea. You are my medicine when your close to me- my better half, monogamist, consort. In undisguised astonishment; a day is better, with a dose of you intuned with more focus on the now. Don't want to move stuck on you.

With a background of indecent exposure in a relationship with no closure
Due to hard times and big decisions there will gaps in dreams unfinished
Tenaciously pushing on left with the little strength through your faith and bond
Adoptable ways got you set astray though in prayer there's a better way
Guilts not the only feeling that comes around sorrow and pain weighs the pressure of head downs
Immensity thoughts to keep it up lack all the envy and who to trust
A past is picture of the real too many chances taken for one to give
Image of trife on lonely nights a choice of wrong trying to do right
Lost in shame with a directional change is a fault to many things

It all happen so quickly I was way over my head
I jump in with no clue with what I was capable of
Confusion hit me first deceiving me of my natural feelings
Anxiety was next snatching away the patience of what there is to come
Confidence was install hiding behide the lack there of
Curiosity didn't make it any better for I was suppose to know already
Happiness is out the door cause we have no window to throw it out of
Deception follows with taunts of those who are there just to be nosy and share no anticipation to help
Angry plays a part with deception giving an ultimatum
Though Love is the key that gets me through it all and let's me be thankful I have another day to feel these feelings.

Introduce with a smile and nice conversion as we shared notes of our next project
Friendship was there so we included the day with lunch and more conversation
With Progress came progression and more or less confession
Continuous interaction with each other being to be a daily routine
Mere gifts food for the belly and drinks for the lips
Curiosity was aroused by words with no sound, so questions was asked and things became at last
As I found
Inside was was bitter though it smelled so sweet big ego attached those with little feet
How happy the days when we meet but that lasted as long as I sleep
Feelings intertwined with lust over love and words were no more just a shrug
Sarcasm with laughter went to debates with fights and space to each other share the night
Distance is now to fill the need along with blocked calls to spare the greed

I'm no concern to her she has someone else to occupy her time
When they fighting or need someone to escape to
******* don't use my shoulder to lean on
I am not your fault
You put me in the friend zone but I know you like me more than that
Are you scared? It's frustrating, who cares?
But this isn't something I am up for it just doesn't make any sense to me
I treat you different from others questions are asks only to be unanswered
You are never ridiculed in my book you are that one "I will"
It seems real but it looks fake
First one to listen to you but second in your race

I'm here and your there
378 miles away separate our intimacy
Despite the fact communications are screened off Androids
We are like aliens unknown of a surroundings area
Pleasures arise with thoughts of memories
Distraught submerge along as space is in between
Passive words builds strength needed for carrying on alone
Wilting trust leaves not much of anything to hold on to
She says "we will see each other again"
Discrimination can halter a whole country from unionism
Especially if the family is use to racism
A typical analogy oil (black)and water (white) dont mix
But like hydrophilic and hydroponic we stick
Love energetically keeps it all together
in a manner showing: The day we are together again, involving great activity
Holding you close embracing your body with mine will substain vitality.
.

Is it love?
She trusts you as far as she can throw you
Is it love?
She kicking you out of her house every other week
Is it love?
She calls you all types of names and degrades you
Is it love?
She attacks you and leaves you feeling guilty
Is it love?
She with another guy and has a baby on the way
Is it love?
She doesn't see you anymore and the texts stop coming
Is it love?
She just wants one thing from you
Is it love?
When she tell you she loves you

I will wait for you because pressure is not what you need right now
I will wait for you because you asks me to
I will wait for you because it is something that I want
I will wait for you because love has no barrens
I will wait for you because there is no one else I rather be with
I will wait for you because through it all my leisure time will be gratefully rewarded
I will wait for you because you are special care package that need to be tended with care cause you are fragile
I will wait for you because you are waiting for me
I will wait for you cause God is our savior and grants is this privileged to be together
I will wait for you because you are worthy of that
I will wait for you because it's something I will not dare want to lose
I will wait for you because I want to spend my whole life with you not just some years and have memoirs of what could of been
I will wait for you cause patience is a virtue and you are my air, my heart beat, my soul.

Is there anything I haven't said to you?
yet any promises I haven't fulfilled?
my righteous will be justified as I aim to please at your will together is what I want
and to be happy is more to see
but what the future behold for us is up to you and me

A guy who shares more inquiries with words
Taking notices that I could be doing a lot worst than my current situation
Death is due to all but is fortunate to ones who doesn't give fate that chance it desires
Not in the desired recommendation for my dreams but I don't dwell on perhaps
Short days and long nights though enough money will make wrong right
So if I see it I believe it getting money is my religion
My correspondence with thoughts got me in a trance with disbelief I seem to believe I can't achieve
Grasp with keeping can't out of my vocabulary
Cause there is no Can't without Can I am special a gift of God
Consuming strikes giving by those of insecurities leaving emptiness
Surrounding myself with encouraged likes and well-built foundations
Falling viticms are not to blame for someone else miss guidance
Take heed to breathe is enough for me.

Strip, remove, pull, or tear the covering or outer layer from something.
cant give too much from what is taken, I Am.

Unseen
Gather feeling through darkness
Failed to see what's in the murky water
Insults makes it better to shield my self from sadness
Indecent thoughts a though they falter
The burning of pleasant grass introduces my father
Like the wind blows and the oxygen we breathe
For he is to me as I am to him Unseen.

I am your support a building or substituting stronger for weaker material structure from below by laying a solid foundation below ground level
Am I substituting stronger for weaker material
I make a certain situation or outcome likely or possible
And to leave me no longer occupied  I felt used, abandoned
As thus, I was just a particular account of some matter,
 from one person in your source,
contrasted with some other account
facing the challenges at hand in an adequate manner. 
I grasp the situation conjugate the problem and
Seize the moment
Change is want she wants and time is what I need
So space is what she got
With an absence of a leave.

Everyday is wondrous day to embrace with yawns in the morning and be thankful for.
Children playing the streets with ****** roads ways and coner stores surrounded with negative images in there presents. Lies are corrupting goals with determination of destructive means.Pride is getting in the way of value confusing our future of what our real goals Is in this adventure. Keeping faith is troublesome when yours close ones are sickly or dying of mishaps. Although they want you to smile and show no empathy, no need for pity entice but ride comments by profile who fail to understand. And your actions speaks for there self only if its in the rights of reasonable talking doesn't help everybody knows everything already. You are your own destination grasp the truth and show how to get through the cracks in the roads as you continue on with your forthcoming. Despite being in a situate where the light doesn't shine in tight spots just stay patience cause it is more good things about the light than the Dark.

To believe is in the heart but proof is what you see the proof is you are so far but I believe your here with me I don't dwell on despair unjustified our love I yearn for you like a reach for the stars above time is with the moment though in the moment there is no time to waste close to you is a Figment of my imagination I rather be face to face words comes easy when expressing how I feel one day one life all this will be real doubt is not here I want or worlds to clash until I think of something else I'll just say I love your ***!

It’s so incredible what I feel for you and if you don’t know it yet I’m so in love with you
I will never be unsure of what I am or what I want because I am yours and I want to always make you happy
You fill my steps with enthusiasm and give my prays an answer with you I'm in tune with my emotions I share my space with you
Lonely with you I will not be cause you make me complete you are my air when I'm drowning in misery
If a man is not all what you think of me you give that light in order to seek  embracing my thoughts so no pain will leak empathy for your love here is my speech
From a man there's was woman from a woman born a man you are my rib you make me complete

Based my life from the corner
In amidst to going forward
Threw blankets on flat floors
Hung lights on back doors
With a limited amount of space
Choices made with consensual looks behide your back
Gratitude attract bad vibes without enough love to go around
Trust is a word for those who knows what it means
Back against a wall in disputable values
Confused and off track of how to deal with problems
Asking what's real self control keeping inside myself from closing within
Custer
On the edge literally can't get a grip, it's a trip
No one around wants to save you or have the intentions
Brace between two walls taking initiative cause I might be here awhile....

And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it, The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That's the only lasting thing you can create, If we don't believe in freedom of expression for people we despise, we don't believe in it at all

Hide the emotion
Drink and drink some more
Ignore remedy sway with the music
Laughs with intentions insert of gestures
Deployed minds think alike
Cluster in one spot refuse to be touch by another
Noises, voices, crackling flash power
Unfamiliar bystander implying good greeting
Annoyance, distraught, fatigue
Promises, lies, and sinning
Unclaritiy to yourself respectfully you request the best.

Itchiness burning pain swelling or bleeding in this morning so we wool and that is why this to be with you and that is why I  went home and to give it to my brother Tay to......

Heart pumping thousand miles a minutes
As i sit still attached to an non profit element
Intact and informed filter breeze keeping me steady
Adversity preform although not clear what from
Adequately prepared tired of cold stare of beware
A lit fuse, small thing with a big bang
Pose to be enticed strike first with respect to likes
Hot in cold situations means are on Go paper chasing
In a crowd with hand out though its better to give than receiving
Simultaneous thoughts merge now your stuck trying to make sense of it all...
Heart pumping thousand miles a minutes

She loves me she loves me not....

She is a daughter to a father and a mother but to you She is no one though she wants to be loved.
Breed from fields and meadow parks with dirt roads over the outskirts of th her foundation.
Cute, petite little-thing with the biggest hearts to overcome dreams, being submerged in negativity from false families to no family.
Disguise by laughs and group intramurals she was told she was a liability.
As she was lied to
She was lied down and stripped of her abilities shamed to laugh this was humility.
Searching for the "whys" she endured in a man who treats her like what she is used to.
Good girl bad situation happy days sad nights.
Opportunity to be giving what she deserves and she neglects what is truly hers.
We try to find these things out but in reality we are just pawns in the next move unsure you have to make better choices and feel with different emotions.
Half of a smile only last for awhile.

More and more with nothing to give is there anyone out there who doesn't want any thing for nothing instead of there pockets to be filled
I asks for conversation and a pleasant life to live but you got your hand out expecting money and assuming I will
understanding comes with means and that's something you don't get so understand your not getting s#&t; that means you have to pay your own rent
If you was more independent and less dependent depending on someone else would just be a waste of time spent
To be in a relationship in with two people not just one
To share is to to give and receive back not just from
Selfish is what are and selfish is what you will be so you will find yourself by yourself is what you will get from me.

As simple as hello.
I can drown myself in new music and relive my memories
sometimes I wrote a lot and sometimes I got away

you thought you got away with ****** but everything was restored
it was like painting numbers on a white pale wall, something clean

humans don't go look for danger, danger will find them where needed
you never waited for me to get my **** together, "I  hate you" was your words
it were the bad things I only could remember about you, all the bad

and all the lonely girls fell for the guys who now has a thing called swag
and all the popular girls didn't fell for the same guys back in those days

Fridays always came with rain and Monday always left with a smile
the moments you lived for were minimum, it were only the weekends

I remember how lonely you felt, missing the people around you
the voices in your head became your new home, they were your friends
sometimes they come back, just to say a simple hello...

it was all about living for someone that never take a breath for you.

Long years dispute not engage with mortality
.. constant hard to please days and unforgettable nights
Time passes with the past of our condolences
Making more apologies than she notices
Pain has all the control, while anger feeds off that
Asking where are you going?! Though the responds is "I'm never coming back"
Elusively saying things I don't mean believing the obvious respectfully outseen.

no end like the big blue sky
Dense by shallowness for this life has Force
Conscience of oneself in predicaments that you asks questions
Mind blisters, wanting incredible to gleam impeccable
Chancing what's seems to be one chance
Give to be, although, taking can be the cause of effect
It's all for respect as to it's all for a check
All victory go to God but does the devil deserve an abject
Kids that disrespect from parents that don't "Say it wit ya chest!"
Living to die, shoot for your goal, but don't glutton over success
Induct to fake smiles no cares its been that way for awhile...

Sitting dazed in assumption
Out in the open position for attraction
Marking time with notes of deaeration
Following the hands that past time
Paused only to stands still
Alone in a life on stand by
You only enhanced time seeking to expect
Short days and long nights
Staying where I am cause I delay action
until something else happens........

Desecrated in cold stares not beyond ones sight to be unheard
Involved with actions of screenplay
Fought so slightly with means to run away
Not scared, just irritated
Heaves implacability to be disrespected
Lounged from so far to be seen as an outcast

Opposed inter courses with crashed images suffer
Bags brittleness stash secretly a million mumbles
Opinionated receiving-ly I'd proclamations
Laugh isf despise becclure unfamiliar faces
Gave my decency add to my atrocity
Gotta kick in my colonoscopy

Awhile sin truth be told you'll sin again.
But one sin shouldn't be the cause of you to lose a friend.
Although sin can be the option for you to think again
Amazement comes many hatred uplifted plenty
Trouble cause from different angles all sides from different cities.
Sins make it hard for you to trust any
Played to weigh not seeing straight
Staright-up I ain't going no way
If you condem the sin well who sent ya
Pledge to to please the mental to make it simple
We was all damaged before we enter

Knowing right from knowing what’s wrong
Doing out of spite to move on
Detrimental drinking patron
I’m living life in a zone
Misconstrued I’m feeling tested
Living life but fighting death
Recognizing demons within myself
Surrounded by feelings except love
Reaching for acceptance refrain from no glove
Bask in your memories of hope to be spared
Grasp to the decision of how much do I care
In fear of nothing as in no man or no woman
Although death could be around the corner so is it the future I wonder
Aside from my actions my words are a interlude
For I see myself as one hell of a dude
Faults might vary in truths no lie I’m as close to having clarity as to growing wings to fly
With only family no friends life ends where it begins
Trouble

Wants, are your ******* of making something good for a satisfaction of a spare desire
Embracing, the fact that your will to choose is in favor of what makes you happy
Although you Can, you are able to; determination gives you more of a basis to lack there of
Nothing, wants more for your loneliness to starve you of your excitement taunting you silence having no prospect of progress.
Hope, carrying you like a carriage summoned on a timid night through times of disparity in means to Keep Things Alive
Need, is what makes things change possessing the power to make things happen, if and when they do come together that clarity of you needed that is in suspense..

Different objectives,  a mixture, what have we
Life obstacles, choices,  preserving,  the questions with theologically "if you asks me"
What is the the price to pay for our mistakes?
Occupied time with our occupied minds
Childhood memories mingle
With those from the fantasy world a mindscape
You're down while standing up
Higher than a parachutist Proceeding to inhale exhale focusing in on cardio- in-need-of-rest
Fueled by the stress this gas has taken it's effect
Pay more for quantity of less
If it kills it's the best or slow your heart down from beating out your engulfed chest
You get what you pay for and you deserve what you get
So asks you shall receive to every cause there is and effect.

Inspiration, worship, venerate
To me you are more than words can implicate
Docile, pull me away just don't lead me astray
I chose happy over horrid, to cherish over destroy it
Miles between us I tend to ignore it, cause there isn't anywhere I'll go or come to and see my feeling for you flourish
If it's an open road I'll floor it
Unfamiliar places exploited
Casting more than a net to catch this dream
Appalled by past situation defaulted her meen
I do what I say and say what I mean
A chance taken for a risk given
Reasoning for the "why" am I living
I adore you I get it....

Greets with smiles and talks for awhile
Introduced with a wave, exchange of names and the seven numbers I saved
Words interest curiosity, feelings velocity, introducing atrocity.
Competitive competition companions
Falling for each other, in squabbles of long standings
Converse emotionally satisfaction is carried through guarantee with subdue
Not to be mistaken if you over think it, can be confused
Amelioration of the voice DrinkSpace
And I feel like my needs or wants send me to a dark place
Attentions got my ears wide open
Intentions of fears of this ending is what I'm hoping
Decisions made bed laid what's to sway
Can't control most feelings
But to doubt is not living
And if I'm wrong I'll be livid
I stand on that pivot
Taunting, eating at me like a tapeworm
Approaching calm but aggression is called for these terms
I wanna be heard and not linger on ever word
OH WELL flicking the bird
Another day another dollar I had it up to my neck (collar) call her

Hey I am unimpressed with, purposely just restless
Delusional making a death wish, likely for an investment
More than I expected, doubting, feeling resentment
Trust me, I'm relentless I wanna see it through
Heading in the wrong direction distracted from a thing or two
A burden is weighing ******* me, I can't stand it
Let's alone be a man and continue what I planned
With no support I can't sustain this, so confused no words I gather could explain this
Learning allot though, depression, starting within sanking like a pothole.

Her I am again in a spiral-down-face fall
Looking up to expectations although it's not a good look
To be grateful another day I wake to carry on my sorrows
Is a blessing to come to an conclusion and figure it all out
In a reverse mortgage payments are not due
Obligated to keep an upholstery on my life
Hard to pick up the pieces when you broken already
Speaking out only to be heard in the ears of the readers
Either my words to be written out instead expressed in a vocal manner
Changing to another pattern or changing the voice of the verb (from active to passive or vice versa) will break the parallelism.

Sank is to float as rise is to fall
Gift is to prize as celebrate is to ball
Life is a must as to crime is to criminals
Endure is to touch as to questions are subliminals
To be full it's enough as a dream is an epiphany
So trust to be fooled as we surrender to save
Are we moving forward to get back kiss *** to be in front
That's *** backwards¡
Tolerate ignorance to be smarter ones
Acceptance of the small comings and you are being the bigger man
Fly before you stand, be all you can be with no upper hand
Raise is to uplift overseeing is not to understand
Sharing is caring and it's better to give than receive
To have is to own although possession is 9/10 of the law these days
To grasp is just a moment but you have to hold on.. be strong..is what they'll say

Place Walking

Trying too hard with effortless means
Short schemes no dreams
In tunne with reailty
Trapped, to find a way out But "no pity" in my deception.
Lost, cause you have no direction
In actuality S*@% I'm screaming this my call out
Actions speaks louder than words Encouragement can't be seen
Best said as you play shall you lay. A balance beam What's your place?

Introducing what youth have is yours. Make it,  Own it!