knock me down, I'm dying, hold me under, I'm ready to drown

I want nothing more than to tell you the truth about everything.

Let's just pretend we don't know each other; neither of us exists.

I'm falling for someone who is absolutely impossible to keep up with.

I'm surprised I haven't thrown up what's left of my heart yet

happiness comes and goes, but misery? oh my darling, *misery always stays.

May thunder roll and
Lightning strike;
I'll never give up
On you.

two nights ago I sobbed over you and I panicked because I can't live with the thought that I might be falling for you.

Of course you'd start to come back when you're about to truly leave.

and I'm tempted to call, but if you answered you'd still end up leaving me yet again, so what the point?

I finally got some
Sleep last night.


And by some I
Slept for 13 hours.

I always did let the
Pretty girls get the
Best of me.

and I know I wasn't meant for this time. But neither were you.

It's all going to end anyways, so why not end it all now?

but, if the devil succeeds
then why do we get
punished in
hell?

If I could keep your laugh bottled up with me forever, I would

The eyes of many surround me, but all I search for are yours.

Maybe I should **** someone
or better yet, I should just
**** myself.

i've never felt more at home nor more fearful than when your hand is resting on the small of my back and when the current of the electricity between us is only bringing us closer to one another.

and he knows exactly the way to make me smile, *its not that hard.

I asked kindly, "Show me who you are." And you have yet to disappoint.

how far away I have become from myself, but I sure love this vacation

I want you to see my darkness and vulnerability, just please don't hurt me.

I broke your heart this morning at 8 am
and then again at 6 pm.

you just keep hurting me every chance you get,
i wonder...have you even realized it yet?

I want to stop breaking people like glass, and I'm tired of hearing my own bones shatter because I allow others to crush them as they walk all over me. I want the world to stop changing for a moment so I can catch up with the times, but I'll never catch up, I'll never see the light of day if I keep hiding myself under the blanket of night where the stars seem to shine brighter than any future I could ever hold on this Earth. I am alone and the ground is shaking and time stops for no one and I believe it wouldn't be wrong to say that I love you because I do, but it is wrong because here I am, trying to pick up the pieces of my ever breaking heart and I can't remember a time when I could breathe because my lungs are failing and my blood is under oxygenated and I feel an emptiness somewhere in between my ribs or my less than whole and aching heart.  Everything is dark, everything leaves a foul taste in the back of my throat and the leaves my be green, but I am dead and I am a walking, rotting corpse and I am surely a shame to this world because all I have to contribute to this earth are the sad stories I tell and the random facts I know about Archduke Franz Ferdinand and horrible words that sort of sometimes turn into poems, so what is the point of living when you're just full of nothing of importance? if I died, no, when I die, I will be either put into the ground or burned, which is not what I want (I would love to either be sent into space or made into a tree) but that will most likely never happen, so at least I will live long enough to know that people **** and anything can break your heart and that you don't care, no you don't care one bit and neither should I, but I care too much about everything and everyone and that is where I'm going wrong. that is why I am dying, I have given every good part of me away and all that is left are the feelings of misery, depression, and disconnectedness inside of my burning soul. if my body were a galaxy, my heart would be the black hole in the middle, for it surely knows how to grab onto the surrounding planets and stars and make them fall in till they are ripped apart piece by piece until they are nothing.

just tell me how to stop it, tell me how to stop seeing it. tell me how to stop seeing the lies and the pain and the hurt, please tell me how to not notice it anymore.

you say what I want to hear and I believe every single word of it.

you have brightened up my life, and i am ever so grateful for your smile.

Of course you would know just how to pull me right back down to Earth.

If you were to go

Then

     I'm pretty sure
I

     Wouldn't be that far

Behind.

i just couldn't think of a forever where i was put down all of the time

i sing because it's the only way i may get someone to truly hear my voice

But to cry in front of you...now that's the worst thing I could ever do.

If I cut open my veins, then the last drops of you would finally pour out.

wish me luck, I'm leaving soon. the plane is going and I won't ever be the same.

It's easy to forget.
It's just like dying, but better.
Nothing can bother you if you're dead.