R: Poems

257 · Apr 2013

Back (5w)

R Apr 2013

Back (5w)

I'm glad that
you're back.

257 · Oct 2014

Water

R Oct 2014

Water

It drips like water, sometimes gushes like a spring
It rolls down faster, hits it with a ding!
You know what this is, I know you that you know it
Because if you did not then what where would it fit?
It dribbles and drops and falls and goes down faster
Wouldn't this be sexier if read by my pastor?
And oh how you know what I'm talking about
But sadly there is no water where there is a drought.

Prompt

256 · Jun 2015

x

R Jun 2015

x

i shouldn't be alive to taste such sweetness
but there i was with you on my bed
finally feeling at home
again.

one part of me screams that i should die but
another part of me wants to stay for
so many reasons.

256 · Oct 2015

11w

R Oct 2015

11w

They hid the pill bottles, but not the gun.
How convienent.

Maybe this time it'll work.

255 · May 2015

Untitled

R May 2015

Untitled

I haven't listened to the song since you've left, and I guess it's just because I'm afraid of what will happen if I do: will I sob uncontrollably or will I not even be phased by the song that brought us together?

Who knows? Not me.
The Rain Song//Led Zeppelin

255 · Sep 2015

hurrIcane

R Sep 2015

hurrIcane

you think of me as an oncoming storm who only wishes to bring destruction. am I not more than death and ruins?

"yes, yes you are"

255 · May 2015

Lo siento,

R May 2015

Lo siento,

I can't risk losing in love again.

255 · Mar 2015

Untitled

R Mar 2015

Untitled

No**, *you can't pin me down.

Can't Pin Me Down// MATD
Good news: I've been invited to be in the National Honors Society. Woo.

255 · Apr 2015

11w

R Apr 2015

11w

you calm my heart and remind me of who I am

About many people that I am very grateful for

254 · May 2015

Untitled

R May 2015

Untitled

you tried to understand me on your couch that night, but the parts of me worth understanding were already too far gone, and because i wasn't interesting enough to you anymore, you left. that's what everyone does, after all. they just leave because i'm not who they thought i was, and I'm sorry for that, i'm just trying to be who i need to be for myself right now. i'm sorry i'm not enough for everyone else anymore.

should i even be sorry?

253 · May 2015

Why I did what I did

R May 2015

Why I did what I did

I did it so I wouldn't have to feel your fingers playing with it anymore
even though you're not here
and I did it because I knew you loved it and I was ready for a change and I thought you didn't love me, so I thought keeping it was useless
I needed it all to be gone, really. I figured if my skin cells won't know you one day, neither should my hair have to endure the pain anymore.
But then I remembered that no matter what I change, my heart and mind will always remember you.
I will always be reminded of the way you smell, of the way your eyes crinkle up when you laugh or smile, or the way your voice sounds on the phone at 3am.
So, I guess being reminded isn't such a bad thing.
But I can't allow myself to rely on you anymore, I need to remember who I was before you and to bring that into the person I am today.
Why did I do what I did?
Because I needed to learn how to do something for myself again,
because I forgot what it was like to do something that wasn't because I loved you or because I wanted to put you before anything and everything.
I just need to love myself again, purely because I am beautiful and I am worthy, without or without another person to tell me so.

I've forgotten how to love myself. May the next month away be a month of magnificent transformation for me and for all.

253 · Apr 2015

6w

R Apr 2015

6w

It'll be okay, *I'll be okay.

Didn't mean to cause a scare last night, I'm sorry. I'm okay.

252 · Dec 2015

Hypocrates

R Dec 2015

Hypocrates

Yeah, you played the martyr for so long
That you can’t do anything wrong

One of the things I love about Marina and The Diamonds is that she's all about word play. For example, these lyrics are from a song of hers called "Hypocrates", which is a play on the word "Hypocrites". I tend to go through an obsession stage with about five different artists (Marina, Halsey, The Weeknd, Drake, and Sam Smith) and that'll be all I listen to for a month at a time till I switch out. I just switched back to Marina and put her playlist on shuffle and this lyric was the first thing that really stuck out to me whilst studying, so I thought I should share it. Have a lovely night, HP :)

252 · Mar 2015

3w

R Mar 2015

3w

I'm already there

home is in my own arms now

252 · Jul 2013

Sometimes (15w)

R Jul 2013

Sometimes (15w)

I want to say what
I've been through but
I'll just end up
In tears.

251 · Nov 2015

back & forth girl

R Nov 2015

back & forth girl

And you're just going back and forth, back and forth;
nothing more than a girl looking for that star in the north.
And you're not really sure where your loyalty lies anymore;
nothing more than a girl who goes where she thinks that she won't be poor.

girl=gender neutral here. I just like the sound better than "boy" here.

251 · Apr 2015

Jesus

R Apr 2015

Jesus

Wash me with your blood,
Cleanse me of my sins,
And remind me of all I have to live for.

Amen
Happy Easter everyone (:
I love you

251 · Mar 2015

Untitled

R Mar 2015

Untitled

There are so many adventures to go on, I hope I'll be ready soon.

I'll be ready to explore soon enough. Time heals all.

250 · Apr 2015

Beauty

R Apr 2015

Beauty

and I said, "let me explore all of you. I want my hands to caress your mountains and I wish to dive deep down into your oceans below. I know this time I will not make the mistake of drowning. I will swim throughout your whole body, and I will dance along your spine. I will catch a ride on your blood pallets and I will learn each crevice that makes up the pattern of your fingertips. I will know what makes your soul so light, and I will kiss your mind with my lips. You will no longer fear something so beautiful and pure, and you will inhale something far more enticing than the scent of my skin. You will exhale your deepest desires, and you will breathe me in and ******* caramel skin. You will know ecstasy from the way your mind shines when you are around me, as mine does around you. When did beauty become something far more than a physical feature? When did it become something you could live? You live beautifully, and I am ever so grateful for you heart."

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250 · May 2015

Love

R May 2015

Love

That's the scariest thing about love.
When it turns on you like that...
It truly is so frightening.
One day, the same reasons they fell for you
Become the same reasons they start to hate you.
From the way you laugh to the way
You step on their toes when you dance,
To the way you tell jokes.
Or maybe it's the way you wear lipstick,
Or the way your throat makes that noise
When you drink. gulp
I always had the loudest one.
But it's not fair, it's not fair at all.

You started getting annoyed with every single little thing in the last month and a half. That was one of the worst pains I've ever felt. Knowing you didn't love the same things you fell for me for.

250 · Mar 2015

Lie:

R Mar 2015

Lie:

I wasn't in love with you,

249 · Aug 2013

10wordwonder

R Aug 2013

10wordwonder

The world always
Spins and
Makes me terrified
Of you.

249 · Mar 2015

Untitled

R Mar 2015

Untitled

Loneliness is starting to become
Synonymous with my name again.

249 · Apr 2014

Happy two months darling

R Apr 2014

Happy two months darling

Two months of love
and of lust
and of slowly
becoming something I'd
never thought I
would become...

happy.

I hope it'll always be this way.

249 · Jan 2016

Untitled

R Jan 2016

Untitled

every part of my body begs me not to care,
but my head just can't stop spinning and spinning and spinning and--

all of my poems will probably just be me and my incoherent and incomplete thoughts because that's all I can seem to muster up as of late

248 · May 2015

1

R May 2015

1

"He gives me the shakes, you know, and I want to see the world with him... I've never wanted that before."*
Oh boy, do I understand.
He makes me quiver with just his smile, and I've only just started becoming hopeful for my future again. No, not because of him. But, maybe the thought of him in my future makes things just slightly bearable. I have such a bright one, after all. Why shouldn't I be hopefully for the road ahead of me?

i want to know him and the way the summer sun shines on his skin
I'm just rambling and I'm absolutely exhausted, but insomnia calls and i answer, sadly.

248 · Jul 2015

1:52am

R Jul 2015

1:52am

you just keep hurting me every chance you get,
i wonder...have you even realized it yet?

ugh everything hurts

248 · Nov 2015

Untitled

R Nov 2015

Untitled

It's been so long, yet it hasn't really been at all.

248 · Sep 2015

B

R Sep 2015

B

And if I could find a new place inside my ribs;
anymore space for you to carve your way into,
so you could have your own spot inside my heart,
I would.
Luckily, you are carving out all of the pain that has been
left behind for me to endure and suffer through because
all you want to do is to make sure I am happy.
How did I ever come to deserve such joy?

I don't, but you make me feel like I do

248 · Apr 2014

4/11/14

R Apr 2014

4/11/14

I let myself eat today
because she watched
my careful bites.
If she wouldn't have been
I probably would've just
stared down at my plate
feeling the twists and
twinges of pain inside
of my body as I
lick my lips.

I like this feeling because
I can control it
and nobody can shove food
down my mouth because
you wouldn't be able to tell
if I've eaten or not
and until I get to that point again
*I don't think I'll ever stop.

247 · May 2015

12:11am

R May 2015

12:11am

I want to cut open my skin with all of the "I love you's" left unsaid, because they're sharper than any blade could ever be.

Not yours, but my own

246 · May 2015

14w

R May 2015

14w

I want you to see my darkness and vulnerability, just please don't hurt me.

246 · May 2015

sheild

R May 2015

sheild

and he says he wants to touch my heart,
but I have built a shield that is impenetrable
because of her.

don't let them in, don't them see

245 · Sep 2015

sage light

R Sep 2015

sage light

I wake up to find you
still on the phone at 6am.
You turn over, yawn, and your
sleepy steel colored eyes flutter open to
find a girl who is fond of you smiling your way.
You stretch and say, "Goodmorning, how'd you sleep?"
Of course I slept well...I always do.
But whenever you and I are on the phone,
I always wake up between 3-4 without fail.
I'll wake up, turn over, and make sure you're okay.
I'm not sure why I do it, but I know that I care for you and
that I want to make sure that you're happy and safe.
The sage light that shines through my window reminds me of
how kind you are...how gentle you are.
It touches everything, but it is not harsh...
It is light and incredible, just like you.

"how do you see so much of me?"

245 · Nov 2014

About a girl

R Nov 2014

About a girl

Maybe if you'd stop
Opening up your legs and instead
Open up your eyes,
You'd be able to see the
Love that surrounds you
With open arms.

For my old friend... Happy Tuesday!
I actually said this outloud... Luckily no one heard me except for a friend and the teacher.... Oops!

245 · Jun 2015

rules:

R Jun 2015

rules:

you say you know love, but you are just reflecting words you hear.

rules//jayme dee
sleepy time mixtape

244 · Nov 2015

Agape

R Nov 2015

Agape

And that's what I believe that you always deserved--someone who would love you regardless of your scars. It's what we all deserve. It's a lot like the love that God shows us. That's what you deserve. And now? Oh darling, it's what you have. Please, just cherish it. Love with everything you have. Let this Love become a part of you, because it's pure and beautiful and you deserve to be happy. Just Love with every fiber of your being. Love is the only hope we have left anymore.

244 · Aug 2015

on the bathroom floor sometime ago

R Aug 2015

on the bathroom floor sometime ago

there's nothing left but tears from the sky and
blood dripping down my hands

metaphorically speaking, i suppose

244 · May 2015

Magneto:

R May 2015

Magneto:

Mankind has always feared what it doesn't understand.

From X-Men (2000)

244 · Jun 2015

Untitled

R Jun 2015

Untitled

i hate you
and i hate this
and i hate
us---
or the
lack
thereof.

244 · Nov 2015

§

R Nov 2015

§

And somehow through all of this chaos, I still think you're worth it.
Every single **** second of it.

244 · Jun 2015

5w

R Jun 2015

5w

i just want to die

hopefully i will soon enough
theses **** pills aren't working anymore

244 · Jun 2015

Untitled

R Jun 2015

Untitled

i know its not my place, but *******.
******* for not understanding and
******* for not giving the love
they truly deserve.

just *******, honestly.

:D

244 · Jun 2015

Untitled

R Jun 2015

Untitled

he's just a temporary home, a hotel room at most, not a permanent stay.
he's not really the kind of guy i'd want to marry someday.

244 · Dec 2015

Power and Control

R Dec 2015

Power and Control

You said that love would always be a game
and I didn't believe you till you showed me
your cards.

Power and Control//Marina and The Diamonds

244 · Apr 2015

Untitled

R Apr 2015

Untitled

love those who do not put anxiety in your heart

243 · Jun 2015

5w

R Jun 2015

5w

where do broken hearts go?

Where do broken hearts go//one direction

243 · Sep 2015

B

R Sep 2015

B

you touched me and I felt a strange calmness wash over me that I had never felt before.

I cannot wait to spend this day with you.
I think he's reaching the status of me naming the poems after him.
I feel so calm and happy, but also excited as well.

242 · Oct 2015

,

R Oct 2015

,

you acknowledged me again today,
but only momentarily.
and as I took out my math work I could
see you looking at me in the
corner of my eye.

as quick as you look at me,
you look away just as fast.

what are you thinking?
please just say something.

242 · May 2015

Untitled

R May 2015

Untitled

Another day passes, and the demons roar again.
I'm tired of swimming, I'd rather drown.
Can I order another round?
Boom
splat
Where did all of that blood come from?
Im going to Hell.

I don't know