and I've been talking about you like you're still the same
oh baby please let me tell you that I'm not the only one to blame
we're just two halves on this incredibly broken planet
just come home already, god ******

I just wish that I could hear your voice all the time.

her kiss is like fire, and I want to **burn.

i don't want to lose you, and yet i don't even have you

Why would I deny myself the simple pleasure of your beauty?

“She couldn’t get any farther away inside from her skin. She couldn’t get away."

There goes that
Fake smile again.

You know you're in Love
when someone catches you
looking at her from across the yard
and snaps a photo of you
gazing at her
beauty.

Daddy,
I miss you.
Alot.

don't remember the old me
she died long ago
she is not worth remembering
and guess what?
she dug your grave
for you
too.

You remind me of
Love.
But when I'm alone in the darkness of my room
I can hear the slowing down of your
Heartbeat.
You think you aren't
Alive?
Watch me drown these pills,
Then we'll see who really is.

she bought a star and named it after me
just so she could keep what
was rightfully hers in the
beginning.

He said that he hopes you burn in Hell,
I told him that all I wish is for you to be well.

I let us go to far.
For to long I
Let us fall
Deep, but
I fell really.
Not so much of
You.
You watched me though,
Even though I got a few
Scratches
On the way down
I made sure to
Get back up
Because I thought you'd
Always be waiting for me.

As usual,
I was wrong.

I always did let the
Pretty girls get the
Best of me.

your hands on me feel about as right and equally as wrong as my taste for both women and men is.

just laughs
Like no other.
I wish she
Was mine.

Everybody keeps asking if I'm okay,
Except for you.
You truly don't care,
And that's what hurts the most.
Yes, you love me,
But you don't know how to show it anymore.
Want to know how many times I've cried in the past few days?
Just come look at me for more than two ******* seconds.
Want to know how I'm dealing with this pain?
Im just watching my own heart tear into two while you don't care.
How many text messages have you sent to him in the past few days?
More than our 10 text conversation last night, definitely.
And he's not the problem, it's not about him. It's about you.
Because every single thing has to be about you.
You may not realize it, but it does.
How many times have I been told in the past few days "Leave her, you'll be happier"?
More than the amount of texts you've sent me.
But will I listen to them?
Honestly, i don't know.
Because every time i try to talk to you, You sleep.
And every time I ask to be by you, you say no.
And every time I want to have time to kiss you, you say "I'm taking the stairs".
And every single ******* time I say "I love you", I hear you voice go up to say a measly "I love you". When your voice goes up, it's as if you're telling a lie or saying something without its true meaning anymore. You might think you're good at lying, but you can't hide from me.
Just...do me a favor. Tell me. Tell me you aren't happy. Tell me you don't want to be with me anymore. Tell me, just tell me. I'm losing you and I don't know what to do. You're my love...you're my heart.
I just don't want you to be unhappy. I've cried so much... And every time you ******* off or break your promises or words, I fall apart again and again inside.
Just tell me. Please.

"I think I'm falling in love." She said with a slight quiver in her voice, scared of what I'd say or do next. I looked at her, I dared to ask, "Who? Who could possibly be worthy of you?" She turned around and then turned back, she looked me in the eyes with her big, beautiful blue eyes and said, "Only you." And she grabbed my face and kissed me with such passion, I think I would've passed out.


Good thing she was there to catch me.

I just want everything to be blown away, so that hopefully this won't get ruined by the debris, too.

I think I'm fine
With being who I am.
lesbian!
I'm scared someone will shout.
But, even if they do
I'll keep my head high
Because I've been through too
Much
To let something so
Small
Bring me

                 Down.

Silence
Lets
The
Demons
In.

I realized that
I'm a terrible friend.
All I do is fall in love with them and
Ruin our friendships.
I should probably stop that
But it's because I get to close to someone and
Mistake their friendly love
For
Something... More.

I guess all I'm saying is that I'm sorry.

you say you want us to be together but
I just say I want another hit.

You know you're
in Love when
she kisses the
tip of your nose
and you think
that every single
star in the known
Universe was made
in her image.

i am mountains and valleys of mistakes and wrongdoings,
but i am here on my knees Lord---
i am ready for You.

and your voice sounds like heaven at 2am, but my darling I must sleep. my mind can't bear to stay awake anymore and I have much to do when I wake up.

God, you've always been a
Part of my life.
I used to dream about heaven and
Pray to Him every night.

A few weeks ago, I thought of what a waste
That time was.

But lately, I keep thinking that maybe it wouldn't hurt to
Talk to him again.
Maybe he can help me.

My split ends
Reminds me of
The cracks in
My heart.
They're spidery webs
That keep forming
By the demons
That pull away
All hope
For something more.

I like being alone,
No really I do.
I'm content
even though
I dont have a future
With you.

Every night I
Go to sleep
With tears r
                    o
                      l
                       l
                        i
                         n
                           g
Down my face.
I think about all of
The things I've done
Wrong and even about
Why I shouldn't be alive.

I've been trying to go to
Sleep earlier and earlier
Each night just so I could
Escape the world a little but
Longer and even get the
Crying done with
Earlier.

Yes, I, myself, am lovesick.
I am honest to God sick of love.
Does that make sense?
Love makes me sick in every single way,
And as my skin burns and my bones ache
Because of it, I learn that love is a sickness that
You'll just get over one day.

I'm so confused,
I'm drowning.

I remember what happened as we watched this movie,
and the many other movies we shared together.
But there will always been new movies,
And there will always been new people.
But that doesn't mean I won't miss what we had
And what we shared together.

you have no right
to show her my feelings
and my life,
unless you belong here,
just please stop looking
to stir up trouble.
my thoughts and my
actions are mine
and this sites only

stop starting ****,
im ******* sick of it.
i am happy,
and so is she.
so why the **** would you
want to ruin that?

He never loved
Me
He never even cared.
The looks were all artificial,
The way he acted and
Stared.

she asked me
"what is so
horrible
in your teenage life
that you feel the need
to **** yourself?"
to be honest,
i'm not even sure
anymore.

the list kept growing and
i got tired of keeping score.

i would still die for you
even
        though
im
           already
                


                              *dead

I've been watching my calories lately,
I've had 395 today.
Which, I will maybe go try and
Burn some off cause
I want to be able to
Eat dinner tonight.

he told me he loved me by accident, or so it seemed.
we were laughing together like any normal night
and we were facetiming to talk about his car and
how much we missed each other.
and as we were laughing, i realized he stopped.
i found him staring at me and him slowly forming the phrase,
"I love you, Rachel."
he didn't come out of his daze for awhile,
and he seemed quite surprised that he had said it.
he sort of nodded and smiled, as if he was assuring himself that
he meant what he said when he told me that he loved me.
i just remember looking at him,
looking at my glass screen wishing i could touch him on the cheek
or even hold his hand, just so he could know that
i feel the same too.

i'm sorry that words don't seem to be enough to show my love for you.
i just know that I've been told that phrase enough without actually feeling the love that is supposed to be radiated between two people when they say it.
i just know that i never want it happen again, and with you it hopefully never will.

so, when you said you loved me, you said you meant it.
you said that our silly banter and my laugh and the way i breathe while i read made you fall for me.
you said you didn't mean to, it just sort of....happened.
but more importantly, you said something that i had never told you that i feared.
"I won't leave you. I can tell that you're scared, because they all leave you. Rachel...I don't want to be like them, I'm different. I love you, and I need you to know that you're loved. I swear I won't leave you, I swear it."
my heart wants to believe him, and my body craves to tell him that I love him too...
but my mind? well,
it's having a hard time letting me believe that
someone can love someone as
heartless as me.

Flashes of you go round and round in my mind--
Wisps of hair and the shine of the moonlight on your skin--
the sounds that escaped your mouth and
the way your back arched in the dark--
Words that you've said, or even lack thereof--
The love that held us together, even when things hurt too much--
And the end... the end where I shook with
sadness and fear of the oblivion that
you threw me into.

Will you remember the tears that ran down my face
and the words, *"Just one day more, please?"