i don't ask for immortality,
i ask for eternal youth.
but that's not possible
so i just need to live.
oh my this is so cringey and full of cliches but i dont know im just terrified of not being on this earth.
the evening rolls in
clouds of pink and purple
the sound smells like roses
the ground purrs when i pet it
touching the soft grass in bare feet
my skin glows with life
my rings are just a blessing that i don't need
i make no sense right now
but i feel content so
i must make sense
the wet pavement sounds like summer
i think i'm in love with you
i can feel your energy
can see it
so i think
i'm in love with you
Drinking poison to thaw the frozen
numbness suffocating the beating hollow
in my chest
sometimes only a few, more often enough to
paralyze my field of view
one liter of cider and three songs of lana del rey
in the dying sunlight the birds feel comfortable
i just want to have fun
for once in my life.
in the starless sea i found my supernova
enveloping me in a warm haze of light
forever and ever and ever and over
no one understandy me anyway.
© fey (06/08/2020)
just a little crazy thoughts from a little crazy girl
carrying the strength of an eagle
a woman with the smile of a goddess.
the embodiment of beauty
a woman with the voice of an angel.
eyes closed, standing alone.
there was something melancholy in her stature
something bittersweet in her smile—
perhaps it was in that moment that I fell.
the side she did not show the rest of the world was mine for a moment.
Eyes closed; as
My fingers gently glide across.
These Mountains of records;
Scattered every which way.
As I browse through
That has changed the world. ❤️
all of my emotions, all of them – heartbreak, ecstasy, grief, love – just punched me in the gut. and now i am nauseous. nauseous over reading a book, but in a good way, as weird as that may sound.
reading about love is a hard thing to do when you've not experienced it yet. but i'm holding on to optimism; hoping that i don't have a boring rom com sorta love, but one that makes me want to rip my hair out one day, then bask in its splendor the next. gosh i just want it to be real. maybe that's why i feel this way.
because it's real.
normal people by sally rooney | i am in awe
Heaven rained on me,
I breathed in the petrichor,
Bathed in the downpour.
I have sinned,
So destroy me,
With your rain.