leah godsmile

so bright

your light

blinding

too good to be true

i am not enough

to be with you

leave me behind

in the dark

i'll just sit here

watching

in awe

how your spark

rises

the gleam

up

up

and beyond

everybodies wildest dreams

broke her heart

and that broke my heart

******* a man

******* the part

that burns like wildfire

how can i stop myself

from hurting

her fragile butterfly wings

i turn her mute

when she sings

******* myself

in a spiritual sense

rip

it

out

my heart

if thats the part

who goes against your

shining

radiant

soul

rip it out

and burn me whole

i will serve

as ashes

to kindle

your passions

some nights I wish you'd
just knock — it's not just my door
I'll let you in through

when i think about it now

even having distance

i cant tell you how

it happened

even if you insisted

an accident

driven by emotion

inverted devotion

what a destructive thing

it can be

spilled the glass

but the water

will never go back in again

you see

a tragedy

written by linearity

if i was god

i would play a shell game

with the disparity

of cause and effect

move em around

until its correct

but

we both know

i am just another silly man

who turned up the heat

too much

burned

then broke

your precious love

you never TRULY loved me

oh

how do i know?

because fire is hot

duh

swallowed by the earth

a blank slate at birth

now i am here

i fear

your fleeting love

i love

your fear of losing me

it begins

with you and me

and it ends

with you losing me

eyes wide open

in the pitch black

you see

what i see

made a deal

that truth is what we feel

together

in this mess

we digress

eyes wide shut

what we got

is what we lost

paths got twisted

we missed it

the mystery of being loved

crawling

to the tv
to the sound who shakes
my state of mind

crawling

to the fridge
to the taste who soothes
my state of mind

crawling

to the door
to the person that upsets
my state of mind

crawling

to the window
to the view that bores
my state of mind

crawling

to your secret unseen light
to the shine that uplifts
my state of mind

not

crawling

anymore