My heart aches.
I don't know why.
My feelings seem fake,
and I feel numb inside.
It makes me fear what is to come next.
Those thoughts make me perplex,
and diversions can't keep them back.
I wish I could just fly,
but I know I can't,
for I will never flee ,
from the pain that's controlling me.

The tears of a rose
Will soak and stain
They're from her heart
They're stored up rain

They come from heaven
To flow down thorns
They sing in screams
From her lips torn

They can be acid
To burn the bloom
They can be crystal
Reflecting moons

The rose will open
In dead of night
The tears from petals
Refract the light

They cascade down
Drop from the leaves
For her soul
She sits and grieves

For her soul
The drops fall down
They feed her roots
Under the ground

They bring her back
The legend goes
There's healing in

I tried not to cry
But tears just fell in my eyes
Before i have knew it..

It begins in the Uranium 239
On a plum pudding with a mine
She thought it was just an electron
Later in neutron
And now its definitely proton.

Where in her heart pumps like radioactivity
She ignores the theory of relativity
And in the day on she knew
That she had fall in love withtout any clue.

How easy to fly a kite
But hard to get him out of her sight
Beacuse love strikes like a speed of light.

All of these were ruined so quickly
Because mass defect came so early
"the binding energy of you and me got failed"
Because his heart was already held.

How I wish that radioactive decay was here
That transmutation will appear
So may alpha will protect her
May beta will support her
And gamma will comfort her
Though isotopes can't bear here
Half life is still so long
To stop this irritating song.
She can't help this chain reaction
Becaise its way to dangerous without undergoing fission.

I will be telling this with a sigh
In some where ages and ages hence
That ionizing radiation will be the way
To remove an electron from atom someday.

I made a mask for myself one day
So colorful,  filled with glee
but beneath the surface
lies another aspects of my personality.

Nobody sees me cry
Because i designed the mask for smiling
Nobody can sees the pain
Because I made the mask for lying.

Beneath the smiles are tears
And behind the joy is sad
Everything you see,
Is not everything there is me.

I once removed my heart mask
In a place where nobody could see
I look in a mirror as tears fell to the floor
I ask myself,  "Why can't I just be me? "

My face was hot and sweaty
Because i wore it for along,  long time
I told myself not to wear it again
And stick to this real beauty of mine.