My honesty is never understood...But everybody loves my lies!!

I wanna be completely open...but my past may not rest well..may not die easy..I mean..I may not past the test...if you knew the ones before I cheated..did you know I'm in love...With multiple people...But I know right then you'll say then you don't know what love is!!! But I am love...the purest definition...in my dictionary...But I'll never fit into yours...beside Prince Charming...If you knew I was 25 when I woke up a 17 year old sleeping beauty...My demons cloud my perfection...I a man baby couldn't you tell...I thing with my head...I love to hear you yell...Why are you surprised..but again I'll could never tell you that's my intentions..you rather hear my falsifications...and fall head over heals in to this fantasy...that won't end happy because you never fell in love..with what you asked for...My Honesty..

Thoughts
Maybe my words are not profound enough..
or my skin Ford tough...
But my Heart is something sweet..
and these thoughts are something that can't be beat...
If only I could pull them out..
In a fashion thats not round about...
And put them down evenly...
Maybe they would sound heavenly
Or good enough to catch your ears..
Or maybe bring your eyes to tears..
See the combination is what matters tho..
I just can't say any meeny miney moe..
But my thoughts, if i could just find a flow..
Maybe i could become a pro...
and Speak my thoughts to many lands..
in hopes that they will understand..
I don't write to be difficult...
just in hopes to create a miracle..
So surely soon i will work this out..
And create dreams without a doubt...
To heal souls, minds and hearts
With just the creation of my thoughts..

Intellectual Insubordinates Infiltrating Independently Isolated Islands...
People Positively Promote Popping Pain Pills  
Do Dummies Distinguish Different Demographic Disorders  
Crazy Commanders Create Confused Combat Corps
Unorthodox Ultimatums Usually Unfold United Unions
Things That Typically Transform Taint Temperaments

Religious** moments are sacraments of faith...
I've believed I have found God
Mary and Joseph had a baby......
I looked in the mirror today
God started boasting of his creation
I cried at my self worth

Come buy lyrics from me...
So I can make money..
Someone purchase my soul...
Because tomorrow I'm quitting my job...
I'm going to find myself...
I'm going on a journey...
Faith full..
I'm stepping out on the weakest limb
My life...
Love
Broken into a million billion cells..
I'm walking
Blindly
To the end of this era..
Buy me
I'm free
For my struggle began imprisoned
Chains no longer have a definition
I'm different
Words created me
So purchase them
So I can make money
And survive
Then maybe some will open their eyes
While you tune out my soul
And live....

I'm a sucka for beautiful women...
Taking my breath away I'm speechless...
One May cause me to flatline
Of All the things that ****
My ****** would be a beauty
Own your life and my seed

It was on this day years ago..
That a piece of me began..
lived 30 years of my Exsistance..
before I ever was created..

Learning Lessons that would guide me
making decisions that would mold me..
You straight A! Bowling Queen
You Drama Class, Afro swag

Making memories for bed time stories
Reminding me of my history
The pieces my genes reenacted
that I just couldn't seem to recall

The muse of my creation
she who place life into this world
Strongest thing I've ever seen..
Before I could understand a thing..

Thank you for your amazingness
your gentle heart and friendliness
I would never be a piece of me
If you never were All you could ever be!!

Happy Birthday Momma!!!

Survive.  these     micromoments        if           you             dare
The        words               I.             suspended  into              life
Night.    fall,               love.                you         better           leave
In.          quick,        thoughts          should      things          regret
My.        sin.                  of.                never       forgetting    behind
Mind.**     runs              ******,          return      old                 me

I wish to lay in you...
Divide and Conquer parts of you...
Call me Hannibal, Ill eat you....  
There's an elephant trunk between you...
Believe the judge I'll rule you..
Sit back while I six you....

I've gained a new power
the one thing that I lacked...
see we stand attached
back to back
but I'm a little taller so I walk for her...
and her feet slightly drag..
I lead the way and she tells me when the coast is clear..
when the trail is gone...
I fight everything head on and anything I miss...
she cuts it down
with iron fist...
When I'm hit hard I might stumble
but my new power wont let me fall back..
for when I leave my feet she bounces me right back
a super duo
But I'm the super hero...
Saving all the girls
with a woman on my back
I told you don't judge me...
So never try to attack
A ******....

I'm the flight attended and this plane is going down!!!!!.....
No control....
Because of Pilot Jones....
We hitting homes...
Bout to crash and burn...
If I only learned to fly...
I guess death is the lesson learned...

I'm a man And You should want me to have a Man perspective....My manliness should not scare you...but ****** you...it should not frighten but bewilder...make you wonder...You should trust me to lead you from my man perspective...But if you don't trust me to do...Then why is there me and you...If you can't respect what i do then you can gladly leave... I will listen to you but don't nag me please...because that man in me will surely start to grieve...See it's the way I see things...I'll consider you opinion...but if it makes no sense then it will never be an option...So you can not judge me from a mans point of view...when you are a woman ,and I don't expect you to...so why do you expect me to think like a woman...when thats not what you're attracted too.....

Time

Through the memories of space lies time...time that we never had....but that time never stopped.... nor attempted to freeze in with the winter cold...just continued...moved along without us...and us with out it grew old...Forgetting that each other we were meant hold... So the hour glass ran out...and we grab on to somebody else...Speeding up the progress...of this collapse...That fragile moment we shared...that felt like years...that passed us by...and continued to fly..away..goes the hand of youth..as we move into maturity...and time never stops for you and me...more distance...as we remorsefully grip the arm of the innocent...and use them to blockade that space...that should be filled each others face..those lines on our faces aren't wrinkles..but a time line of every thought we had..of one another...of every thought we had that we wished time stopped... So we could find a way to share another second...but it never did so we're left with these scars of time..Security behind the heart of the wrong thing...and Freedom in the eyes of that which wont wait...Time slow down..like you did once before..in the perfect moment when we had time to adore...each other..but now we just hide..not wanting to be caught by the innocent.. for if time never stopped the reaction...of our licentious actions..it would harm the hearts we hide behind.... and then they to would have to would be forced to blame time...

May....
You found your way from heaven
again...
blessed my skin
again...
You have sprung life into
May...
I've missed you
Since you left me
I never got to say
I love you
again...
And then you returned
in her smile
Her Laugh..
You returned in her voice..
And I fell in Love
for you..
May
taught me love
Showed me Love
and here i fall in it
but just like you...
May
so far away...
its August
and Im trying to get back to you
but you've left me
again...
back to heaven..
again...
May...
Stay...
But if I must
Leave
to find you...
I'll Die if I have too....

I Dream them....
live them...
I breath them...
For love is all around me..
Even in the fear...
Even in the hate...
love is what I hear..
Call me naive..
Cuz Ive never wrote a love poem
I've only breathed
life into a pen...
That created some thing
Heavenly
inspiration from within
Even if you
can't beleive me...
you will read me...
and know love..
exhale a deeper
meaning..
Cuz theres nothing deeper
then this bottomless pit
That all these lovers
Aimlessly fall in....

What can I do with this mind of mine....smh I'm so lost in this Renaissance....Man...They never called me my name...I place my hand in everything...and never asked for a frame...but I stand a picture...an image...of the Renaissance....that hasn't started to began...Idea...I am just a relative idea...that is never thought about...anymore...I am a Renaissance....Inside of a Man...That is dying to be released...dying to be untamed....But I'm stuck inside of this Man...

"Im looking for calm waters...
For this Storm is perfect"

As her waves crash against me…
I cry..
adding water to her sea…
She surrounds every inch…
I becomes we…
because I have not much to give..
because she already can supply everything for me…
and yet her waves crash against me…
our bodies become rough…
tossing each other around..
and around..
nothing falls out of place..
even as the world turns ..
she hold me in place..
crashing her waves against me…
I desire to be calmed..
I want her to know peace…
but her waves fell so good
when crashing against me…

Ball of yarn
December 15, 2011 at 8:34am
BALL of yarn you're everything i need
everything i need
the only thing I see
ball of yarn you're so much fun
everything I need
you're the only one
Ball of yarn falling down the stairs
everything i need
going everywhere
Ball of yarn unraveling
everything I need
downward traveling
Ball of yarn you've turned in to a string
everything I need
all i have is string...

walks over dry asphalt
in the blistering summer sun
blister on top of blister
skin red and flakey
Heat rashes
are worth it
when momma gives me a dollar
after the white truck says
"Hello"

I want to touch you with my words..
I want to spill myself in verbs...
Creating one sound
About one Noun..
I want these emotions to be heard...
Thought about then felt..
Translated then yelled
I want me to be memories..
Recited scriptures on the tips of your tongue..
I want this to be Fun...
Me explained in dictionaries..
You reviled in song...
I sing of you in rhythm..
This verse...
one untitled song
And you will love it's tune..
Adding power to these feelings
I adverb my love inside...
To many adjectives to describe..
The sight inside my eyes...
I want to create us memories..
Dreams that fall ideas..
Let my words surround you...
Releasing all your fears..
Touching you with every syllable
Accenting every R..
Pronouncing all my Ps and Qs
Our details will be the fuse..
Light the match with your sweet lips
Lets us burn in pages
But our memories and dreams
Are now Ideas
Words thought without a Fear...

**** me, then buy my body parts...
This mind is now for sale..
I paid for unused college credits...
My muscle memory is retaining thoughts..
You can learn something from me...
Take a bite from my flesh...

On my knees at the altar...the altar of the corner of which way, and no way...I fell...too tired to walk,too beaten to stand...I was at the moment when Rocky went down..that moment when meteor man lost his powers I was defenseless..by myself I just needed help..So I looked to the sky..and rain began to fall..gently on my face...I prayed...For an answer...for a guidance..I prayed for a peace...and strength not rest but strength to continue on....and the more I prayed the heavier the rain...It washed my tears... cleaned my wounds..the blood was washed away and my cuts were soothed...I prayed for a better day.. for all who would pass my way, I prayed... for wisdom to change the things I had caused to go awry...I prayed for people who have past where I am laid on the street and died before the win!! I prayed!! And the storm passed over!! And the sun began to rise...and a new day began...as I stood and walked 1000 more miles...

World, You are still so round..
The depths of you are encased...
I dug through and reached daylight...
If flat I would have died...
Heaven, You're just a perfect belief
Way Past this cold darkened Space...

Girl you know I'm lost ...Lost in the thrill of it all...
and I was laying with Delilah..when she cut off my hair...
and i was lost inside her...blinded right beside her...
Eve got me to eat her fruit...and I was buried with her...
naked right beside her...bamboozled cuz I need her...
Coaxed by my Queen Esther...Iam Lost...Lost in the thrill of it all...
Girl you know I'm Lost...inside your temple..
Binned by your ribs...Connected at the heel...
Achilles didn't die at will...but was only protect too the heel
Medusa stares inside me...and I freeze up to stone..
My soul is given to her...i am lost inside her
Girl you know I'm lost......Lost, in the thrill of it all..
Robbed by Rebekah...Blessing will never be the same..
Work 14 years to hold Rachel...caught playing silly games
Ill **** just to hold Basheba...but Jezebel is in my bed!!  
Tell me where is Mary.....Mary he isn't dead
I'm just lost...Lost in the thrill of it all...

My** Feet began to slowly rise.....
High was only a confused understatement,  
Was lifted way beyond my soul
Simply Lost In a place Unknown.....
Your Actions made my body fly
Love Has taken me, So High!!!

Em ' I Static??..I dont want to be the same...unmoving... But I dont know where to go..I have no google maps..no Siri to guide me aloud...But frozen feet...Shock From Static ways....of normal everydays...How I've lost adventure...No Oregon trail surrounded by Amazon river...but a concrete road and wooden desk. A shower head and a full sized bed..The static...Eligible freedom but shocked by metal knobs..Static person...afraid I will never change...it is comfortable here...Lovely..But I want crazy, exciting: almost breath taking...Charismatic...But It seams I remain static....

You were the Sun of my Day
The moon of my night
You lit up my life...
Until You brought the moon to my Day
You eclipsed the sun
blocked out the rays
Being the best of both words
Seperate, you should stay
but together
You are destroying
my light
And now outside of happiness
I stand in the shadow of what use to be...
I can still see an outline
But its so faint I can't see
your blinding me
because its just so dark
inside of this heart...

Cut my pay, the American way
Then tax that pay some more,
Work all day for minimum wage
Then wonder why i can't afford,
Car note, rent I don't eat..
I never dreamed of being poor...

See the Molly had her singin happy days for happy ways...
little did she know she'd end up in alleyways...
selling body for protection...
have *** with no protection....
food and water became a luxury...
because Molly was necessary...
and little sherry from south Philly
changed her name to something silly. ..
cuz them happy days got so scary
that she lost all parts of Sherry...
Sweatin in her sleep..
****** on the streets...
Because Tommy wanted money,
she got more than she could hope.....
so he could keep her coming,
back he gave her Molly lace with dope....

I told her how could heaven survive without her..
For she was that moment
When the sky is blue and the Sun peeks through the clouds..
Beautiful...
I told her that angels must envy her smile
because all they have are wings...
but your smile causes men to flight...
I said to her...
Comfort
You will find comfort in my arms...
Love in my heart
and wisdom in my thoughts...
And I sung
Sweet Gloria
Sweet Sunrise in my night time...
Sweet moonlight in my darkness...
Sweetness in your kiss
You shine....
I told her I'd do better
I promised with a kiss
I sealed her with my sweet song
that went just like this

Sweet Gloria
Sweet Sunrise in my night time
Sweet moonlight in my darkness
Sweetness when I kiss
You shine.....

Justice** Justice can I get more...
Is life that simple to take.
Not breath, I mean behind bars..
Granted is freedom to the guilty..
In hopes to call court fair..
Florida, every killer wanna live there..

I died twice, then you came...
Every night,I waited, tomorrow lied
See Today wasn't great as Yesterday
I jumped in two oceans blindfolded
I sank to the bottom floor...
And died again, *******, Tomorrow

There was a wishing well there..
I stuck my hand in quickly...
Robbed the **** out that *****..
Took every single bit of change
I transformed overnight with that change..
Into everything everybody wished to be...

It's gonna get better...
When the fall comes...
And the rain blows
God promised..
rainbows...
Not butterflies..
When eggs hatch..
Cobras grow..
Thats life man...
Rain Blows...

My eyes can make you feel obligated...so look at my shoes and tell me you love me...Cuz they'll show you where i been...And if you don't love that then.....let me keep using them to walk away...Because my bags aren't that heavy.... but my shoes are kinda *****...You feel me...I ain't always been in the right place...so don't look me in the face..that body part didn't run the race...But its what you can do with my feet that I care about..How high will you lift me...will you put me in flight....a high night after night after night...Can you love me when my eyes are closed..see that is the trick...and my voice is all you get...not sense...no I mean mumbles, moans, and mashing...do you love the tone...the man behind the eyes...love me when you're alone...Cuz my eyes can make you feel convicted...and my lips will leave you scorn...But my feet won't ever lie...Now what will you say to I...Its ok just repeat...exactly what you just said to my feet...

My mind is quite like the world I live..
Corrupted....
Sin in a mural of fear...
I've plagued the Daydreamers...
Killed off their first borns...
With fantasies of success...
In defeat they shall mourn ...
Cuz Tomorrow will never come..
cause it will always be today..
when you wake up
go to sleep
No matter what you say....
When the sunrises you will be in Today..
The sickness this disease,
will seep from my brain..
and or it seeped there, still,
I will proclaim that
I'm Pyscho for real....
You just haven't accepted
what you really feel...

Forget Your kind words
I feel Like ****
Death
You with bad breath...

I saw the barrel flash
but it didn't
end me
just rearranged

My life looks like
a *******
Go ahead
Google it...

and I feel like
Cold sores
disgusting
pus-ing

Cuz I don't need
your candy
Prescription
I need ******* Medication

yesterday I thought of you...
world, and how I would take you over!!!
creating diabolical schemes...
mischievous mischief...
i believed in something..
control...

and then a red head redbone
fumbled into my thoughts...
Asking "what are we going to do today..."
and I say a walk on the beach
a picnic in the sand..
and then....
it hit me...
I'll drop to one knee..
And take over your Whole World!!!

I stalk you sometimes....
in my dreams...
and then i awake to your face..
on my computer screen..