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bakit ba pinagpipilitan ko pa ring ipaitindi sa iba? hindi rin naman nila talaga alam sa paningin nila, napakababaw, napakataas naman ng pangarap ko isipin mo, ako? isang simpleng babae, minamahal kang isang lalaking maraming nakaaligid? na pawa bang isa kang nilalang na taga-ibang planeta alam kong minsan ka na rin nakaramdam ng pagiging ordinaryo pero sadyang ka'y layo mo na ngayon, iba ang takbo ng mundo mo minsan inaamin kong nakakahiya, na ipagsigawan 'tong pagmamahal ko sayo pero dahil sa iniisip kong hindi nila naiitindihan at di kailanman na maiitindihan itong nilalaman ng puso ko ay ikaw sinasabi nito na mahal kita na mahal na mahal kita kahit di ko magawang ika'y lapitan dahil paano mo nga ba mamahalin ang isang taong napakalayo sayo? pero patuloy ko pa ring iniisip na mahal na mahal kita inuulit ulit kong sabihin ito kahit na alam kong di mo rin naman din ako maiitindihan oo, alam **** mahal kita pero hindi, mas higit pa sa iniisip mo gusto kita gusto kita, gusto kong mapalapit sayo na mapasaakin ka yung gaanong kagustuhan mo sa isang tao alam kong di kailanman kayang ibalik ang nararamdaman ko pero bakit ko pa rin ba ito pinagpapatuloy kung alam ko rin naman na wala tong mahahantungan napakasakit man isipin na hindi ka pwedeng mapasa akin gusto kong may makiramdam sa akin pero hindi nga nila maitindihan ikaw ang gusto ko pero napakasakit na mahalin ka bakit ba kasi ikaw pa? mahal na mahal kita gusto kong ipaalam sa'yo pero paano nga ba? kung sa una pa lang hindi mo ako maiitindihan ang tanging naiitindihan ko lang kahit napakasakit man tanggapin napakasakit man para sa'kin pero eto ang realidad na alam kong mahal mo rin ako mahal mo rin naman ako pero bilang isang tagahanga mo lamang eng trans: why am I even forcing others to understand? they don't even know in their eyes, it's so dense, I have dreams way too high think about it, me? a simple girl, loving someone like you who's surrounded and looked upon to? as if you're a being from another planet I know that you once felt what it's like to be ordinary but you're just way too far from my grasp now, your world runs differently I admit that it's embarrassing, to shout out this love of mine for you but mostly because I think that they don't understand and won't ever understand that you are the one kept in my heart it tells that I love you that I love you so much even if I can't even get near you because how can you even love someone that's so far from your reach but I kept on thinking that I love you so much I will keep on repeating this even if I know you won't even understand yes, you know that I love you but no, it's much more than what you think I want you I want you, I want to get close to you for you to be mine that kind of desire for someone you know won't ever reciprocate your feelings but why do I even continue this? if I know this would get on nowhere it pains me to think that you won't ever be mine I want someone to empathize with me but they just don't understand you're the one I want but it hurts to love you why does it have to be you? I love you so much I want you to know but how? if from the start you don't understand me the only thing I understand even if it hurts to accept it even if it hurts for me that I know that you love me too 'you love me too' but only as your admirer
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Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 10:05 AM UTC
tadhana (fate)
bakit ba pinagpipilitan ko pa ring ipaitindi sa iba? hindi rin naman nila talaga alam sa paningin nila, napakababaw, napakataas naman ng pangarap ko isipin mo, ako? isang simpleng babae, minamahal kang isang lalaking maraming nakaaligid? na pawa bang isa kang nilalang na taga-ibang planeta alam kong minsan ka na rin nakaramdam ng pagiging ordinaryo pero sadyang ka'y layo mo na ngayon, iba ang takbo ng mundo mo minsan inaamin kong nakakahiya, na ipagsigawan 'tong pagmamahal ko sayo pero dahil sa iniisip kong hindi nila naiitindihan at di kailanman na maiitindihan itong nilalaman ng puso ko ay ikaw sinasabi nito na mahal kita na mahal na mahal kita kahit di ko magawang ika'y lapitan dahil paano mo nga ba mamahalin ang isang taong napakalayo sayo? pero patuloy ko pa ring iniisip na mahal na mahal kita inuulit ulit kong sabihin ito kahit na alam kong di mo rin naman din ako maiitindihan oo, alam **** mahal kita pero hindi, mas higit pa sa iniisip mo gusto kita gusto kita, gusto kong mapalapit sayo na mapasaakin ka yung gaanong kagustuhan mo sa isang tao alam kong di kailanman kayang ibalik ang nararamdaman ko pero bakit ko pa rin ba ito pinagpapatuloy kung alam ko rin naman na wala tong mahahantungan napakasakit man isipin na hindi ka pwedeng mapasa akin gusto kong may makiramdam sa akin pero hindi nga nila maitindihan ikaw ang gusto ko pero napakasakit na mahalin ka bakit ba kasi ikaw pa? mahal na mahal kita gusto kong ipaalam sa'yo pero paano nga ba? kung sa una pa lang hindi mo ako maiitindihan ang tanging naiitindihan ko lang kahit napakasakit man tanggapin napakasakit man para sa'kin pero eto ang realidad na alam kong mahal mo rin ako mahal mo rin naman ako pero bilang isang tagahanga mo lamang eng trans: why am I even forcing others to understand? they don't even know in their eyes, it's so dense, I have dreams way too high think about it, me? a simple girl, loving someone like you who's surrounded and looked upon to? as if you're a being from another planet I know that you once felt what it's like to be ordinary but you're just way too far from my grasp now, your world runs differently I admit that it's embarrassing, to shout out this love of mine for you but mostly because I think that they don't understand and won't ever understand that you are the one kept in my heart it tells that I love you that I love you so much even if I can't even get near you because how can you even love someone that's so far from your reach but I kept on thinking that I love you so much I will keep on repeating this even if I know you won't even understand yes, you know that I love you but no, it's much more than what you think I want you I want you, I want to get close to you for you to be mine that kind of desire for someone you know won't ever reciprocate your feelings but why do I even continue this? if I know this would get on nowhere it pains me to think that you won't ever be mine I want someone to empathize with me but they just don't understand you're the one I want but it hurts to love you why does it have to be you? I love you so much I want you to know but how? if from the start you don't understand me the only thing I understand even if it hurts to accept it even if it hurts for me that I know that you love me too 'you love me too' but only as your admirer
after the supposed 'spoken poetry' I wrote this in front of the library where it was held. I just joked around (on the first piece) that 'he doesn't understand because of the language barrier', and they'll just laugh. but I feel like utter crap at that time, thanks. but this is just the fate of a fangirl for their idol. | 170303; 12:57 pm {nj.b}
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Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 10:05 AM UTC
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