When I said I love you I meant it as a phrase that was said, was being said, and will continue to be said
I meant that everyday I would say it to you
And everyday no matter what we would be able to look into each others eyes after a long day and whisper them into our ears before falling into the abyss of our sheets
And every moment I took to look at you, you would look at me and memorize the way my lips moved & how my eyes lit up when I spoke these simple meanings to you
I never expected you to turn away from these words, turn away from me
When I spoke them I never thought you would respond with 'OK', squeeze my hand an walk away
That when I stared into your eyes you would be staring at my chest or past my messed up hair and out the window into the world without me
I never thought I love you could turn into I loved you or I need you or even I'm begging you

I always thought you looked at the lights in desperation to connect with my soul
Now I realize you've been looking for an awakening to get yourself out
I guess I was being a little bit immature
And I'm sorry for thinking, in my head, realistically that nothing could amount to everything