I'm not good at falling in love but I seem to be good at being in it
I kick and I flail when emotions start to trickle and accumulate to pile upon one another like clues toward a conclusion unsatisfactory because I know where this is heading
I've been head over heels and *** over elbows and flat as a board on my back but each time as I felt it growing I denied, and I lied, and I wept
See, I understand what it's like to start a war over the wink of a lady I know how it feels to share a crush with those whose happiness you prioritize above your own
I know how to feel worthless and I know how to doubt and I know how to keep my mouth shut but I know how to love without regrets and I like to believe that's enough
See, sometimes I feel the need to browse through old tags on tumblr and sometimes I stare at my phone and debate sending a text and lots of times I remember that I saved every message I sent you
But that isn't fair.
Because you know love is ever evolving and there's so many different types and perhaps never the same love twice at least I hope not, anyway. Cause I always seem to throw myself into chasms overflowing with deep dark water and I'm not the best swimmer.
And I love to believe that people are life preservers stuck on shore.