who are you?
a different you for everyone.
what’s really there?
i don’t think even you know.

i wake up, emotionless.
like falling, hips to a concrete floor.
like cold fingers through my hair.
everything is loud and frozen.

i shiver.
i remember how you smell
and realize it won’t ever be the same.
i thought i’d want to know your past, to know you.
i wish i’d never dove in
head first to the ice.

i don’t know if i can blame you
if you know what you’re doing
if you think about it.
i just know i’m hurt
and confused.

i thought i’d be safe
from the ground.
when the sky promised rainbows
it was really hiding thunder.

what’s the point?