the pills don't do anything
and i'm lying here with my stomach convulsing
and i'm choking on all the memories
all the times you were happy and i was happy and i knew you. and it's like nothing matters anymore and i can't stop thinking about every time you made me smile because now i fall asleep with you in my head and i dream about you and i wake up and you're still there
but all you do now is just make me cry because i know i did this. and i keep thinking about graduation like it's going to hurt so much when i finally have to leave you

but you're already gone