I am secluded in a silence that used to be a nuisance to me, a stubborn student.
I became diluted and muted like the t.v. screen that would stare at me; i could recognize the truancy.
Reluctantly, I started speaking my heart fluently.
It was all new to me;
Like a dream I would never see in my wildest dreams,
What a sensation to see me in the seams of my sheets, sleeping on the things that revolve around my destiny.
I am the teacher that was testing me.
I never listened, I never glistened.
I guess i was always sickened by the written cursive that curved through my tongue, inhaled to the depths of my lungs.
I was gasping for air, looking for the tear that left these words leaking from skin that was bare.
I was scared.
Now, my fear has been shriveled up and burned.
I let these letters churn like butter, my mind expanded like rubber, so much that I never wanted to tell another.
I guess i was selfish living in a shell of the sea,
But as soon as I cracked myself open, I could breathe.
I could believe.
This is me, standing on my feet.
Refusing to be anything less than the roots that anchor the trees,
Or the scars on your knees that would bleed when you would beg them to please, never steal your love and leave.
I am the veins in every leaf that left when fall arrived.
Somewhere in the bone chilling air, but you know I am still alive.
Do you believe in what you cannot see?
Because I am gone like words in the midst of silence, but I hope you learn to believe in me
Like how I once believed I could never be the words that you see,
But I am here, walking differently.
There's a different tone in my voice.
I speak me, fluently.