4:30am wake up rub eyes get dressed coffee needed 5:00am out the door have to hurry to work 5:55am just made it 6:00am work starts mindlessly working 9:00am coffe break 9:15am mindlessly working self doubt beginning to creep in 12:00pm lunch break no money so I just sit at the table 12:30pm back to work self hatred works its way in 3:15pm leave work to head home 4:10pm  finally home self hatred and doubt working my mind 7:30pm hot bath to ease my mind 8:20pm water is no longer warm 8:45pm neighbors hear a gun shot 9:30pm man found dead single gun shot to head apparent suicide 10:15pm note found says no longer am I bound I am finally free