are you good at this
it happened when you leaned in for the kiss
by the trees
we were in the outline of the forest
and you knew what I wanted
you
I loved you like
I had always wanted to love someone
and I thought this was what it was all about
that I could leave behind the other aspects of my life
we would always have each other
right?
so why am I here?
standing like a homeless person
on the corner of anxiety and depression
begging you to come back
because when I lost you I lost me
I gave up everything for you
and you just gave me up
like catching a fish and releasing it
I never thought that being left would feel like this
I feel hopeless
like a tidal wave has ripped through my life
and took everything I had to sea
it took you from me
I want you back
I want the tide to roll back in with you
but I can't love you anymore because you left
my friends say you ruined me in hushed tones when I leave the table
the sad part is
I agree with them
I think I should have known
that someone who kisses so well must kiss often
must want to practice with other girls
but you don't have to practice leaving
you are good at that