It is in my blood I can feel its presence When it’s on the verge To emit a surge, every time my heart beats
An impulse, Scurrying it’s way through the crevasses of my brain. Tainting the walls of grey matter with a tendency for unpredictability, Out of my reach.
I hate it I don’t want it I never asked for this
I can’t slow my mind down Thoughts so fast, hit me with whiplash It’s insanity.
No.
I’m not insane I can’t be I’m rationale
I think about how I think about things, Like it’s a cycle that never stops..
Which I guess could be my downfall My vision says it all When thoughts travel my mind In dark tunnels at times My eyes blind to the surroundings
Tunnel vision that make you claustrophobic; You feel trapped When all you see at the end of the tunnel, Is the darkness of insanity
But.. I’m rationale
I acknowledge I have a tendency to be blind to my surroundings, How can I be blind if I can clearly see? Is life objective or subjective? I just want to understand--
You're stupid — What was that? Felt like a surge, on the attack An impulse
That voice That’s it.
Unpredictability
That lies, In my brain waiting to be brought to the surface With the surge of an impulse. It’s the insanity that taints me, From seeing what really is
I’m not stupid, I’m a learner.
Granted with the gift of analysis, But darkened by the cruel nature of impulse To taint my minds innocence
I'm not scared to think about it anymore
I am insane, because it’s what you make of it. Insanity grants me with the gift of perspective, Throwing a million different ones my way Ones that are positive and ones that are new Traveling at hundreds of miles And this even includes
All the negative perspectives as well
At the times when I don’t want to hear them.
Insanity must be embraced and never repressed. Repression tells you no don’t do that, it’s wrong. When insanity isn’t embraced, it is feared. When something that’s inevitable is feared You’re no longer insane,
**You’ve completely lost it.
"You're only given one spark of madness, you musn't lose it." - Robin Williams