Repetitive complaining spoilage Asking for help but pushing away anyone who tries The way people help isn't the way I want it
I want you I don’t get to see you when I want to Because sometimes I need to hold your hand And I'm punished for needing help
I don’t know if my problem is this depression doc prescribed me with Or the idea that running away from problems is the path most travelled by They said that when you held my hand, you brought me down the wrong path And they said your hands were filthy
But you promised me that you would wash them Clean them of the sleepless nights And the assumptions of your life Prove them wrong
But don’t change who you are Don’t rinse your hands in bleach like they want you to Rinse them in the forgiveness those people need while reciting your ABC's And don’t forget to wash in between our mistakes
How do they expect me to hold foreign hands? Without a razor in my own How do they expect me to find sanity? When they’ve taken everything
Transporting me into the hands of others Am I too much to handle? But they didn't even stamp "handle with care" on my crate Carrying surprises of disappointment
It’s been shipwrecked stormy seas Seeing familiar faces Explaining myself over and over again Monotone and white lies
Of all these 16 years they didn’t even know me Now pursuing every secret And every locked door
I don’t hold the key to my own body anymore It’s in the freckled hands of lullabies Strings attached I'm their puppet