Apparently this is how rebounds are.

I guess I've never loved enough,

To ever have one on a crush.

Well I've never been in love.

I can surely say though,

That I love this one very much.

His face is ingrained into my mind.

The familiar name scribbled on my heart.

How long will it try to tear me apart?

Whenever I see him,

Real or in pictures,

That is when my heart bursts.

At random times my heart aches.

I literally feel it crying in my chest.

My brain also won't let me forget.

I will always love that one.

I did, I do and I still will carry on.

Now someone else though,

Threatens to steal his place.

I don't want to let him in,

But I can tell he's creeping in.

I can tell that it would be nice,

But he has nothing on him.

I can daydream both of them up.

He is still my number one.

Seeing his picture,

Is what makes my heart swirl.

It must be curiosity.

I've heard about rebounds.

Of course I never understood.

If this is one then are you sure,

That they are not an evil curse.

It attacks me inside.

Making me feel so guilty,

Does it show on the outside?

Apparently you can rebound from a crush.

Let's be honest that's all he is,

Even if I think it's more.

To me right now it feels like love.

Too bad it's not returned.

This came from a crush.

The one I love.

The one I got rejected by.

It's okay, I see how I'm not enough.

Even if you said yes,

Even when I asked you out,

I knew how crap I was.

I knew you should have better.

This makes me feel bad too,

Because I gave him the option of having someone.

Someone who is not enough.

He deserves the best.

The only person I could think up,

That would be worthy of his love,

Well that's impossible.

No one deserves him,

And there's no one good enough for him.

I'm at the bottom of my chart of worth.

I hate living with myself,

So I don't know why I'd want him to love me.

I know you said I'm perfect.

I know you said you cared.

You also said you love me.

You know I love you more.

In a very different way.

The way you love me is plenty.

More than I deserves,

But I'm sorry that's just not enough.

Not when I've fallen so hard.

I'm here on the ground,

Just watching you standing tall.

Without a problem.

Never going to fall.

Well not for me anyway.

That's only what I dream.

I actually like this heart break.

Even if it hurts a bit,

Or a lot.

At least I almost have something going on.

I'm sorry but it is what it sounds like.

I want something to be sad about.

I want my heart to break.

Then I can learn what love feels like.

I know this stuff sounds twisted.

You're like, who are you to think that?

I find it twisted too.

Maybe we all are a bit on the inside.

Deep down.

Most people wouldn't think this.

Yes I want more pain,

Of which none I have.

Don't ask me to explain.

I highly doubt I can.

I want to promise I'm not that bad.

That I'm a good and nice person.

I don't know if I can.

In not sure if it would turn out to be a lie.

I want to stop thinking of this other person,

In this way.

I only want the one I really love.

The one who I know doesn't love me.

But if this new person of interest does.

I've been trying to think of what I'd do.

The answer to that,

I have no clue.

I'd still be thinking of him.

I don't want to let myself do that to him.

Go out with someone,

When my hearts with someone else.

I don't know how to stop it.

Some would say stop bothering with the first.

He doesn't love you anyway.

They don't understand how much I don't want to.

I never want to let go of him.

This other persons just a rebound.

Keep your head, heart and eyes faithful.

Don't let your daydreams drift.