I want to scrub my skin until it's raw
I want to clean until the floors shine
I want to put on a face

I want to lie in bed forever
I want to smoke until I cough up black
I want to drink until I can't feel

I want to make them smile
I want to tell a joke
I want to be funny

I want to hide
I want to lock my room
I want to run away

I want to succeed
I want to never worry again
I want to be happy