Everyone is so afraid of pain
but I hope I become more afraid of life each day
I want to fall in love with someone who will never love me back
I want to scream on the top of my lungs and still have no one hear me
I want to be ignored by those I want to listen
I want to fall down and feel like I'll never get back up
I want you to rip holes in my skin and leave me alone to bleed out
I want you to break every bone in my body and leave me with nothing but my ruined soul
people say it's so fucked up to be afraid,
to be hurting
but when you come home alone
and have nothing left but old photos and texts that still make you tear up
all you have is pain
if you're never hurt, you aren't living
and god damn I'd rather be in pain, then feel nothing at all