nights like these I think about all the people I don't know no time is consumed the way mine is as I sit very still and imagine someone halfway across the world sitting as still as me sometimes I wonder if some person in china just took the same breath as me thought the same thought as me only, in her native tongue is there a person out there who looks exactly like me? I have this extreme addiction of needing to be connected to strangers I'll be driving past someone halted at a red light and I think oh my god, I've most likely never met that person but I just glimpsed them and they just glimpsed me and for one quick second we /existed/ to each other that person existed and was on my mind if I hadn't been driving at that exact moment, quite possibly I never would have known that there WAS a driver how crazy is that? and sometimes I people watch and I don't know if it's my own mental block or if I'm just beyond weird but I imagine their lives and how they are as a person; it's like I make people have tones like music or wine or a conversation would and I can't fathom their minds, fears, stories, families, paths, selves life is so tough for me to drag myself through, and yet maybe someone else with completely different circumstances and experiences from me is feeling the same way or maybe they aren't maybe there are people out there who don't feel this way I'd like to meet them, I'd like to meet all of them even if I were to despise their choices or maybe they disrespected me who cares? they existed to me and I cannot figure out why but the simple knowledge of that feeds my soul intensely