I used to reach for a spliff to numb the pain Of when my chest started to ache Or when my brain was about ready to explode I'd drink until I couldn't remember my name Just a quick shallow cut across my skin Would lead to more and I'd be horrified to look at myself the next day
Now that that's all gone What do I do when I'm choking on my tears at 4a.m. trying not to make a sound? What do I do when the pain in my skull won't surrender to a couple aspirin? What do I do when everything in my world is falling apart while everyone I know is sleeping...dreaming?
The voice in my head says No one cares And I'm beginning to think she's right