Aug 2014
for an awful lot of time, I have been feeling an overwhelming rush of emotion. all kinds. I experienced every feeling there is to feel and I thought that this is the worst thing any human can experience [feeing too much]. on the contrary, now I believe that feeling too much is better than feeling nothing at all.
when an individual is numb from all kinds of emotion, one tends to act careless. may start to push some people away and may seem really distant and becomes isolated. [speaking from experience]
reading this, whoever you are. you might not understand what's so bad about not feeling but imagine it this way.
someone that means a lot to you, it might be your beloved or a dear friend have gone into a horrible car accident and they may not come out alive from it. and you feel all this pain that someone you really care about might not be alive, you might not see them ever again and you can't handle the thought of loosing anymore people and you just want to stop feeling. you want your heart to stop aching but it doesn't. you keep feeling all these horrible feelings and then after a few weeks you get a call from the hospital telling you that the person is dead. so you rush to the hospital crying and when you see that person lying on bed, with their face cold and their heart not beating, you get overwhelmed by emotion that you start to not feel anything at all. you're empty.
you go to the funeral but you still didn't shed a single tear. you want to, you want to let it all out, but you can't you're just numb and that's what you wanted right? to feel nothing? now that you do feel nothing you know how it's even a harder struggle than all that you've felt. now it feels like there's a missing part of you and you can't get it back. you can't move on because you didn't take your time to grieve. and you have to live with the emptiness until one day you get to feel something.
advice: allow yourself to feel every emotion there is to feel.
take your time to grieve and cry when you need to. don't keep anything in because yeah in times you just want a switch off from reality and pain and heartache but just remember that this is not the only emotions you can feel. there's joy, happiness, love, compassion, etc.. and life can be beautiful if you want it to be.
when an individual is numb from all kinds of emotion, one tends to act careless. may start to push some people away and may seem really distant and becomes isolated. [speaking from experience]
reading this, whoever you are. you might not understand what's so bad about not feeling but imagine it this way.
someone that means a lot to you, it might be your beloved or a dear friend have gone into a horrible car accident and they may not come out alive from it. and you feel all this pain that someone you really care about might not be alive, you might not see them ever again and you can't handle the thought of loosing anymore people and you just want to stop feeling. you want your heart to stop aching but it doesn't. you keep feeling all these horrible feelings and then after a few weeks you get a call from the hospital telling you that the person is dead. so you rush to the hospital crying and when you see that person lying on bed, with their face cold and their heart not beating, you get overwhelmed by emotion that you start to not feel anything at all. you're empty.
you go to the funeral but you still didn't shed a single tear. you want to, you want to let it all out, but you can't you're just numb and that's what you wanted right? to feel nothing? now that you do feel nothing you know how it's even a harder struggle than all that you've felt. now it feels like there's a missing part of you and you can't get it back. you can't move on because you didn't take your time to grieve. and you have to live with the emptiness until one day you get to feel something.
advice: allow yourself to feel every emotion there is to feel.
take your time to grieve and cry when you need to. don't keep anything in because yeah in times you just want a switch off from reality and pain and heartache but just remember that this is not the only emotions you can feel. there's joy, happiness, love, compassion, etc.. and life can be beautiful if you want it to be.
