I stood there and watched you leave,
I told myself "why cry now when i was the one who caused it?"
I couldn't help but feel like everything I ever told you was just a lie even if at the time I meant everything I said.

Holding in tears is probably the hardest one person can do even if everyone tells you not to but to me I felt like I had to because i always told you "Why cry over one person when 5 billion others could make you happy?"

I feel my throat get dry and my face get red and overwhelmed just of the thought of how you used to bring sunshine to my cloudy days and how you were the only person I could tell my secrets too.

I told you I would never leave you,
I told you even if we stopped talking I would make the effort to talk to you,
I told you that no matter what pain you felt I would be there with a bandaid and my love to heal your wounds. Times got tough and soon unbearable to the point I thought I would rather die than see your face but the only problem was you were never real...