It has been complicated
Loving you
But I can never give you up

You give me everything - absolutely
Then ****** it back and throw it at me
I've been pelted so many times
With my myriad crimes
I can't stand it, I want to flee
Because you see everything
That could be better
About me

I have to forgive you
Your judgments
And your city walls
When you let down the drawbridge
You let me in and absolve me, umoor me,
      devour me, ground me, grind me, soothe
           me and -- [utterly alone!]

You always come back,  though, always...

You feel like home
You made me whole
You gouged a hole
In my soul
Blood and sweat poured out
I screamed
You held me down tight
Your tongue in my mouth
As my body clenches and takes flight
Even with you crushing me
Filling me
Holding me perfectly still
*I take flight