My own decision
my own creation
my own displacement
my own deflation

I thought and
I asked
I was granted and
It passed

It only worsened
I drowned in delusion
I tried and failed
Now I sit in confusion

The thoughts are thicker
for longer
they grow darker
And stronger

My sanity is slipping
My ration is shrinking
My thoughts are repeating
And I never stop thinking

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