I cry not because i'm sad
I cry not because i hate this things and etc.
I cry because I've realize that i've been on a tough situations where all those negativity things i put on my shoulders that i've actually carried since elementary to high school years, where i could stay on my comfort zone throughout the years,  where i could cry & cry and think for that negative thoughts all over again & that leads me to poor health, stress and the people that gives **** to me & my family i was very very hopeless at that time. That there's a time that i've almost killed myself but still all those dreams, my family just motivated me not to do it and they are the one that i'm holding on.

I cry because those times had just flew me away that would still remain a memory to me because without those trials/ struggling that i've keep maybe i wouldn't learn how to stand up again and wake me up for such things that i might regret to smile again. Because without these things i might not be able to start again and without this i will not be positive; changing my perspective in life for whatever trials may come to me i will always humbly accept it because God didn't put us in a situation like this that we can't handle but he put us here in order to become a better person, to learn to stand up and become a good follower to him. I really appreciate people whatever colors they have & thankful to those people who are involved in my life because of that things that you've put me in i learn how to teach myself, to stand up, to learn again and to share what i have right now.

And i cry because it's already done!