If I die tonight, there is so much to be said that will be left unsaid.

The memories your only company of me.

Time and nature making me one with dirt.

Out of all the people whom I thought I loved or said I did, one has remained the closest to my heart always.

19 years seems far too little a time to have made an impact on the world.

But I hope I may have made a difference in the lives of the few I knew and cherished.

I ask those whom I have hurt to forgive my misdoings.

For no one, not even I could understand the emotional conflicts of this young teenage heart.

I thank the friends who have stayed by my side through the sands of time.

Through every test, every crush and every fight.

For their unfathomable faith in me and their love gave me the strength I needed.

I also thank those who did not stay for long.

Your presence even for the shortest minute in my whirlwind drama of a life was a gift.

You certainly made a difference no matter how short your stay.

The memories of you have stayed with me even though your physical presence could not.

My parents, whom I have blamed, cursed and hated for countless reasons on occasions, I am glad you gave birth to me.

Them adopting me into their family of love, eccentricity and laughter is a gift I can never stop thanking for.

I don't blame them for their faults after all; we humans are all flawed to the core of our souls.

This was not the way I had planned on leaving.

The hopes and dreams and ideas of my young self now lay in the dust beside my cold body.

Nothing but shattered thoughts of what could have been.

The journey ahead is unknown and terrifying to me.

To walk into the tunnel alone is definitely not what I wished for.

To leave those precious without another word or kiss pains me.

I float away into an adventure or oblivion I know not.

Yet I float away all the same.