I had so many options Sleeping pills in my hand Evil thoughts in my head Sangoma's mixed potions A rope hanging on top of my head I could have rolled down the stairs Or took a knife and stabbed it into my chest But I couldn't. My mother cried when she gave birth to me I can't watch her cry at my funeral I thought of what she always say to me That "I hate how I raised you,but I love what I raised" That I should do better for my daughter And not yet be her ancester.