once I was a song
sung by a choir of grace
but I’ve fallen now
and live in solitude
trapped in silent’s embrace
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I opened you up
and found light
the stars
and vast oceans

if I am the sun
then you are a thousand stars
bright like heaven’s doors
and speckled with miraculous life
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once you were all extraordinary
so high up on an empty throne
you told me of freedom and peace
but then you banished me
clipped my wings
left me alone

and you taught me
not to trust in the stars
to stay away from the brightest lights
because they will all burn too*
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I fell for all of you,
and you asked me if it hurt

it’s like—
like feeling completely and truly
as skin and bone,
heaven I can no longer call home

and that’s not even the worst part
I’m losing hope in you
and I gave up everything for you

[I searched for my heaven
and it asked me to go.]