you smile at a blank wall and write some more meaningless words on the poem you started last week. take another sip of your tea and remind yourself that not only are you alone but you are not wanted. your phone doesn't ring and your "friends" never speak but you're used to the scarcity of attention you receive. digging yourself a hole in your heart because any attention is pushed away due to "they'll all leave in the end" becoming a hermit and finding yourself hiding behind your journal and pen because not one person has paid any mind to you in weeks. *you're unloved. unwanted. so my dear, stop trying