Can I just Give up?
Its what I want to do.
Take this blade
and end it all.

Can I just lay down
and accept defeat?
It'd be so much easier
then living in hell.

NO
I CAN'T
I WONT

I want to
I so despretly want to
but I know I can't

My family they need me
They want me to stay.
So I will push it all away
and learn to survive.