when i was 4 i was ashamed of feminity when i was 5 i started comparing myself to other girls when i was 7 i weighed myself on a daily basis when i was 8 i thought that if i wasnt skinny i wasnt beautiful when i was 10 i learned the word "****" when i was 12 i hurt myself because i didnt think i was good enough when i was 13 i wore a shirt that showed my shoulders in school. i was told i was asking for it when i was 14 i had to go to a psychologist because my self esteem was so low i wanted to die i still cant wear a skirt without someone commenting on its length i still cant speak my mind and have a man take me seriously i still cant mutter the word "feminism" without a boy looking at me like i'm **** i still look in the mirror and hate myself i still wonder if im asking for it i still worry about walking the streets alone and my brother never did i still get asked why i need feminism because being called a girl is an insult because men STILL think its all about men because im more worried about being ***** than how my grades are because no matter how smart i am, a boy is somehow better because girls still die everyday as feminism is disregarded because feminism is "a joke" because "why isnt it called equalism?" because i feel that we are worth it