Because you gotta leave and I have so many emotions and you're busy all the time and I'm bipolar and don't expect you to deal with my lows and you're bad at it and I'd rather deal with myself and you constantly tell me to take medication
We don't talk because I don't want to look at you and emotions numbed me and you don't want to speak to me and my lows are happening more and more and it's scaring me and you can't bother with me because i don't want to deal with myself so I'd rather drown myself in medication