Looking out that dreary window,
as the birds flock together,
scavenging for food.
I can see their haste to grab every bit,
snapping at each other,
having a fit.
As that green grass grows,
giving them food,
they forget their qualms,
from the winter feud.
The point where they would cut out each others throats,
in order to eat,
going for every last bit of meat.
They may not dine upon flesh,
but they will do their best to steal whats fresh.
And within the smallest bird I see myself,
beaten out by the strongest crow,
but as I watch this little bird die,
I question whether the crows will let him run dry.
And as they continue to ****** up every worm,
the little bird lays there and begins to squirm.
He goes off and leaves to a faraway place,
one where he can eat alone,
without any disgrace.
And while this may be the perfect metaphor for me,
I only lie here,
wanting to plea.
So as I grow thinner and faint,
I think of the bird,
who left without complaint.
What causes this restraint,
which follows every complaint,
with this picture I paint,
of how I am no saint.
I bring myself down,
making myself alone,
when I could have gone out,
and let others see how I have grown.
But instead I lie on my back in my bed,
until I hear a tapping in my head.
It is the little bird who has come back to haunt me,
tapping insistently,
always flaunting.
Of how it is now the biggest bird,
it goes and eats whenever a worm is heard,
and as I see how big is has become,
I can also see how I am numb,
and it has caused me to live under societies thumb,
never free,
never to run.
Because I did not do as the bird has done.