I remember walking home from your car. I remember the way the street lights were glowing. I remember how I was glowing. My sanguine cheeks hurt from all the constant smiling. My heart pounding against my rib cage like it wanted to escape just to be in your arms again. My arms wrapped right around me from the cold, wishing you could keep me warm. That was when I realized I was in love with you. And it was the most wonderful thing I had ever experienced.
But wait.
If I had known what I know now would I have turned around and ended it? Would I walk a little faster, getting chills from your frozen heart, to my home, never to return to that place.
Or would I have kept walking, just like I did. Gone home and dreamt of us together for eternity. Only to be let down over and over by your lies. Blood dripping down my face, mind hazy from all the pills. Put in hell for what seemed like forever. Only to be released and taunted even further.
Tell me.
If I had a choice, if I had known...what would I have done?